they call me MArYam MOhd

2011-07-31T11:53:00.000+08:00

hello blog,

long time no see...

thanks to playbook, i hope i can write more often here (yeah right maryam....)

jobless

2011-04-13T15:33:00.000+08:00

for the past 2 weeks (after langkawi trip), i've been a superb housewife. though i'm still sending nina to the nursery, i'm happily at home alone doing my own things.
and that is TIDO..

damn.. i only have a week more to do that. haha

yet my little home is well kept, clothes are all washed, well folded and kept except for ironing.. wishing that MyLove! will call out the helper to do that, floors are cleaned, nina's toys are well kept, dishes are all washed up, ugly betty season 4 pon dah habes, movie marathon sampai lebam mata, astro first that katham, what else should i do?

maybe.. GO TO WORK. hahaha.. malas tapi, coz i know they will give a new job to me. strange.. i thought i am about to leave the company, why are they still giving me new task?

huh.. been going up and down to pj to check on the millage and alternative ways if there's a major traffic. so far, i know the route pretty well.

was thinking of joining a gym or something at pj area so that i can work out in the morning before work.
somebody did mention OBC at pj, however their morning sessions are not convenient to me (there's a session on saturday!) so gym is an alternative. tapi.. as usual byk tapinye.... hehe

urghhh.. ape nak buat lagi ni. it's raining, and mata dah kuyu.
trip to the cinema perhaps.. sempat kot. heh

pregnant

2011-03-09T15:30:00.002+08:00

NOT!

almost a year ago, i found out that i was pregnant. :)

i did not take any photos of myself as my stomach getting bigger and bigger.

but, somehow, i have all of my picture taken by others as my stomach getting bigger and bigger.

haha

pregnancy year 2010:

1 month-3 weeks

2 months - 7 weeks

3 months-14 weeks

4 months-16 weeks

5 months-20 weeks

6 months-25 weeks

7 months - 32 weeks

8 months - 35 weeks

9 months - 38 weeks (at ward, dilation at 1cm)

let's hope my next pregnancy will be in the year 2012/13 (this is after europe :))

mooooving (updated 2/3/11)

2011-03-01T11:58:00.001+08:00

after a serious consideration.. WE ARE MOVING!

not to the new house. we are gonna sell the house now and move to KL instead.

huhu..

we go with the flow

*NEW UPDATE:
We won't sell the house now. Just looking for a place in kl that we gonna rent.
More like tempat persinggahan la.

So, anyone have any? Heh

HELLo

2011-02-23T09:59:00.002+08:00

and i thought i'm not going to work anymore!!!

sigh

hello jalan templer aka TRAFFIC JAM!

tapi

2011-02-21T12:19:00.001+08:00

thinking of quiting my job by the end of the month.
tapi mcm nak tunggu nx month.
tapi mcm dah xnak keje langsung.
tapi mcm xnak gi kelantan for good lagi.
tapi mcm nak jaga nina je.
tapi hutang keliling pinggang.
tapi.. dan tapi.. dan tapi..

i'm tired.
nina has been sick for the past 3 weeks.
lepas satu.. satu..
demam.. selselma.. batuk.. kahak.. demam.. rashes..
this month je i've been on leave for 4 days, just to take care of nina.

uwaaa..
sambung full time master je la.
bye bye working life

super like...

2011-02-16T15:51:00.003+08:00

GLEE!

today i waste my time (purposely) looking for the mike chang and tina duet video.
and still couldn't find the full version of it.
i'll post them once i found it anytime soon (you should see mike chang's moves)

instead i found this.. and i SUPER LIKE it too!
i've heard this version on radio (sang by lovely gwyneth paltrow) before though.
aarhhh.. x kesah.

enjoyyyyyyyyyyyy

thank you

2011-02-14T10:57:00.001+08:00

yeah.. i'm late for my birthday celebration.
and when i'm finally there, everyone has eaten, the cake is already gone and idya is about to leave
huhu

BUT, i heart the gift very2 much.
thank you thank you thank you

i shall cook for you babes one day when i have the kitchen as below...

hehe
so, nx bday, shall i get gordon ramsey's plis! hehehe

cina pon nak raye

2011-02-04T10:38:00.018+08:00

i went to book xcess last monday and i received a fortune cookie!

let see

noted! but i'm still hungry!

well..

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR..
arnab style!

nina bobo

2011-01-17T17:27:00.002+08:00

lagu utk nina yg comel

*edited at 10:20 18 jan 2011: changed to another audio video with someone actually singing it. heh

job

2011-01-14T12:30:00.002+08:00

* edited at 345pm

i start getting myself a career back in mid 2006. at that time i was just a beginner, trying to adapt working environment. is it a dream job: No. it was never a job of what i wish for, but i guess, i just need a bit of experience.
i don't mind traveling though. fyi, the distances from home is about 55 km a way, toll total of rm5 a way. salary wise: not much, but i never expected anything higher at that time since i was a fresh graduate.

by the mid of 2007, when ldp toll rises from rm1 to rm1.60, i start questioning my motive of working that far with no salary rise. plus, i just bought a new car, and i start feeling that i might not able to afford paying for petrols n tolls n hutangs with the salary. i always hv 0 savings.
then, i start involving in a business project that can give me a better income and has always been my dream job. by the end 2007, i quit the current job and concentrate on the project.

but the project did not happen. because of the major politic tsunami in 2008, the projects got stranded, and we the team are very2 dissapointed. it never occur to us that politics can affect our business plan.

pergi membawa diri, i start looking for a part time job around kajang and bangi. yes, part time. cause i thought at that time the project can still work and i'm also getting engage in mid of 2008. so need some cash.
part time pon, i was looking for a job involving food, since i'v the experience. so, in 2008, i have 2 jobs, a training facilitator at a spa in bangi for 3 days only (pressure kerja ni, mngmnt x bagi kerjasama langsung), then i change to the current one. the one i'm still working at, until now. and part time never happen. it's a full time job.

current job, work wise, i like very much. distance: very much in love. time frame: sangat2 x best, work on weekend, holidays. environment wise, biasa la.. jealousy and perasan superiority ada dimana2. though, this company produce massive production where 80% are for export market, this is after all a family business. i can work here for the next 30 years, doing the same thing, with the same post. i wont have the opportunity to get raise to manager level, no matter how good i'm at the work. get what i mean?!

even while i'm working at my current place, i had interview invitation by quite a numbers of companies: TESCO, AYAMAS, Nestle la (oh, nestle gaji ciput la) etc.. but my mind setting at that time is very not focusing on career. i'm getting married lah, pregnant lah, going for vacation lah.. etc

2009, had an interview with KFC in glenmarie. but have to decline because of the distance. another 50 km from home, is a no no.
2010, had another interview at bukit jelutong for a US based food company that will be shifting to olak lempik that very2 soon. still declining because of another 50 km distance.
2011, a request interview by a multinational company, Campbell. yes, soup campbell, prego, kimball sauce dsb itu. i want this so badly, but it is near jalan templer, a well known road for a very2 bad traffic.
i had a long chit chat with the HR an hour ago. she advice me to try and take the job, career wise. her advice, surprisingly was very2 comforting and encouraging.

a stepping stone for my career life perhaps... i might take it if i'm qualified. please2... do pray for me!
:)

morphing

2010-12-30T17:55:00.000+08:00

i morphed images of myself and MyLove! to check out how our baby looks like:

tadaaa:

XDE RUPE NINA PON!

HAHAHAHA...

mars

2010-12-27T15:01:00.004+08:00

NOT ME!
hehe.. bruno mars to be exact.

though he was arrested for coccain possesion, don't care about his personal life, but i care about his voice and music.

i wish myLove! would dedicate 'Just The Way You Are' to me. nak harap lagu 'Everything" from Buble pon mcm xde harapan.. huhu (mane nak nye, asyik dengar SINAR je.. retro sungguh)

nway, my current fav from mars.. (yg ni toksah la nak dedicate plak..eheh)

enjoy~

Bruno Mars - GRENADE

Easy come, Easy go
That's just how you live oh
Take, take, take it all
But you never give

Should have known
You was trouble
From the first kiss
Had your eyes wide open
Why were they open?

Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash,
Tossed it in the trash you did
To give me all your love
Is all I ever asked
'Cause what you don't understand is

I'd catch a grenade for ya (yeah,yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, )

I'd jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah, )
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, ) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for you baby

But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no

Black, black, black and blue
Beat me till I'm numb
Tell the devil I said "hey" when you get back to where you're from
Mad woman, bad woman,
That's just what you are, yeah,
You'll smile in my face then
Rip the brakes out my car

Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes you did
To give me all your love
Is all I ever asked
Cause what you don't understand is

I'd catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, )
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, )
I'd jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah, )
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, ) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for you baby
But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire, ooh
You' d watch me burn down in flames
You said you loved me you're a liar
Cause you never, ever, ever did baby...

But darling I'll still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, )
I'd jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah, )
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, ) Oh, oh

I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for you baby
But you won't do the same.

No, you won't do the same,

You wouldn't do the same,
Ooh, you'll never do the same,
No, no, no, no

BF (breastfeeding ye.. bukan boyfriend)

2010-12-16T18:16:00.001+08:00

how do you make it work?

one reason, breast pumps are expensive. i'm not talking about the manual one or the battery operated one.

the best one so far that i've tried, is of course medela freestyle, for sure. Medela in style quite bulky manakala swing is ok but suction lebih kurang mcm spectra. but the cost for the freestyke pump only is almost 2k. but the result by far better than the others. both battery and power operated, better suction (susu kluar mcm waterfalls), ringan dan la bole bawak ke mana saje.

i only settle with the one i can afford spectra 3. reason being, i'm staying close at home from work. at one time, i thought i can go back home during lunch time and do my pumping. but, sbb malas nak naik tangga everytime, i just bring the whole set to the office.

i won't have problem keeping the milk since i can tumpang at not 1, but 4 deep freezers available at work. advantages of working at food company. ehehe

my problem is however, the area that i want to do my pumping.

surau do not have any power outlet.

pantry ramai org lalu lalang pulak.

my office, well i'm sharing office with my manager and a colleague, and both of them are men.

what i can do is to do my pumping during lunch hour. i've change my lunch time a bit later than the others so that i can rest longer. 1/2 hour pumping milk, and another hour, having lunch as usual. that's settle.

this really go well for the first 2 days.

after that?! my manager change his lunch time. earlier in fact.

so during the main lunch hour time, he will sleep at his place.

berpeluh la aku nak mengepam. i did it anyway since:

1. he will be sleeping soundly. siap dengkur tu

2. he's an old man reaching nearly 60 years of age (bile la nak pencen ni). so, kurang rasa malu la since he himself have 5 children and many cucus

3. i have my pc monitor as my cover from his view

4. i'm the only one in the company have never been scolded by him. seriously! (dia sangat garang!) err.. xtau la ade kaitan ke x

wish my milk production goes well at least for another 4 months.

(i never targeted till 2 years since i don't want to be pasrah if i couldn't make it that long).

ok nina.. mummy's coming home!

Contentment vs Dissapointment

2010-12-10T17:07:00.001+08:00

C: TKC9600 reunion event goes very well! SYABAS!

D: it never occurs to me to take any photos with my own camera apetah lagi with my berry2. i hv a total of 0 photos of the event. celup facebook ajo la

C: nina starts growing. currently 2 pcs of her cloth are not wearable. sape nak? free ni.

D: my boobs are not going to shrink any time now, resulting 80% of unwearable cloths and bras. oh.. maybe some pre-wedding jeans too. eheh. ala...takkan nak buat kain buruk plak?

C: most of my work at the office are done before the coming audit. thanks to my colleagues. just a few documents left to verified. i'm happy

D: office politics is never over!

C: most of the people who knew me have been praising me not getting plumper after delivery. you have no idea of what lies beneath

D: my skins are getting oilier. need facial and spa fast!

C: everyday now, i've been passing through the construction area of my new house. seems everything are up and painted. maybe some electrical work and interior are not done yet.

D: new house meaning HOUSING LOAN! aaarghhh.. duit duit.. di mana kau duit!

C: new body shape means new cloth. new cloth means SHOPPING.

D: shopping means spending. spending means bertambah la hutang credit card!!!

C: esok cuti yey!

D: and still 0 plan.. sigh

postmortem

2010-11-09T15:05:00.002+08:00

it's about time i post something worth reading here.
but sorry.. still no photos. still malas to take the cable and upload tones of nina's photo into the pc. maybe, i should get back to my own apartment to do so. here at my parents, from living room to kitchen pon mcm jauh nak jalan.. ehehe

postmortem:
1. nina getting heavier. everytime i carry her for breastfeed or changing diapers, i'l get muscles cramps in my arms. i could build up muscles by the end of this month, kot. ;p
2. i'm back to my pre pregnancy weight. well, i've achieved that just after 2 weeks. breast feeding helps! and urutan after bersalin juge membantu especially to buang all the angin2 and bengkak2. next target, my pre wedding weight within 3 months. mampukah?
3. pantang? i still don't understand what to pantang.
a. i do were socks until now (tp byk bukak dr pakai la)
b. wear bengkung premium beautiful by hi-o now, but my body shape is just not that suitable for the corset. i should wear the girdle instead. alang, little help here please?!
c. i'm practically controlled drinking cold water up to 2/3 weeks. lepas tu belasah sume pon minum
d. i ate dominos pizza after just 2 weeks, and ate KFC at 4th weeks. both courtesy to my parents. ehehe. MyLove! u ask? he bought me bubur nasi almost everyday for lunch up till the 3rd week
e. i did mandi air akar kayu up to 2 weeks, berurut for 4 days, bertunku for about 4 days. air akar kayu and berurut are done by my nek teh, and alat bertunku is hers, but i do the bertunku session on my own (sbb buat sendiri la jadi 4 hari je buat.. hehehe).
4. nina's cot are seriously full of my junks than hers. you name it: ade minyak halia, books, corset kalau x pakai, kain lampin, kain lap muke, bantal, camera, socks etc... handphone dah x letak dah.. :p
5. my nephew, ibrahim, is staying with my parents (his atok and wan) for this few days. this doubles my duty as a mother, but thank God, atok is still his favourite person to manja2.
6. did i tell you we brought nina for shopping at Jusco after just a month? i never found this as to broke any taboo since i do have to bring nina to clinic after all. still need to bring the baby out from the house. and the result, a brand new baby stroller for her.
7. i'm going back to pasir mas this friday, and will be staying there for a whole week. atuk and nenek and the whole kelantan family wants to see nina pulak. after that, on sunday 21st, we'll be going south to simpang renggam for acen's engagement. nina has been travelling to all places since in my womb. are you going to become another Megan McCormick? (please do!)
8. aqiqah insyaAllah will be held on friday, 19th Nov 2010 at pasir mas. do come!

oh.. and thank you to all of you for your wishes, visit, and gifts. i should say don't membazir buying too much baby things before birth since most of nina's are gifts from my family and friends.
so far we'd received baby cot, carseats, cloth diapers, bouncer, nursing pillow, clothes, toiletries, money... etc
and with the money, we bought stroller, breast pump and other essential items.
hehe.. jimat duit kami~

1 month

2010-11-04T18:26:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 1 MONTH BIRTHDAY MISZ NINA!!!

nanti mummy beli cake n mummy makan for u ye!!!

love u always!!!

ps: sorry. malas nak upload photo lagi. ehehehe

041010

2010-10-17T20:41:00.005+08:00

due date 171010
actual date 041010

hehe.. ok, so i've given birth 2 weeks earlier. unintended actually. i try targerting 101010, but i think that pineapple vitagen did the trick! 2 days after i drink the vitagen, i broke my water. and 1 day later, i gave birth.

anyway, have u met OurJoy!

ok. so the story goes like this.

7am - 8am bright Sunday morning of 3rd Oct 2010:
woke up at my bedroom at my parents. bermalasan atas katil with MyLove! MyLove! telling me what his plan for that day (open houses and weddings to attend without me tagging along bcoz dah terlalu sarat). me feeling malas to get up even i'm already wide awake. MyLove! decided to buy some kelantanese breakfast. se he went ahead downstairs and me continuing with me lazy sunday.

approximately 8 - 815ish am:
i did sleep like 5 minutes max. then i felt something weird in my stomach. like something did happened. but i don't know how to describe it. but the baby still moving like nobody business in the stomach. so, i guess it's just gas. the feeling is just too weird

820ish am:
a quick splash of water coming out from my vagina. not really splash, more like a high speed spray (xtau nak describe), with me still lying in bed. shocked, i woke up and the water just keep on dripping. clear water. so it's not pee. tho i do really need to pee at that time.so i just went to the bathroom and pee and washed out the water, but it still keep on dripping. i called MyLove! number (thinking that he's out buying some nasi) but his phone was ringing in the room. aiyooo.. x bawak hp plak. thank God he did not go anywhere. just watching tv in the living room. so i called for him to come upstairs and show him what had happened.

930 am:
after a quick bath and breakfast (nasi goreng my mom made) we straight away went to hospital serdang. i did not feel any pain whatsoever. no contraction.. no blood show.. baby still moving.. but the water still keep on dripping. even at that moment i'm still praying that the baby won't come out sooner because of my targeted date (101010.. hehe).
at the nurse counter, i was told to go inside the waiting ward, changed into my kain batik, lie on the bed and wait, while they monitored the baby's heart beat. i did try to sleep but i guess because of the machine, i just can't seem to close my eyes. baby's heart beat is normal. so i waited for the doctors to check me out.
the doctor came and did a quick check. discover opening only 1 cm. later another doctor told me that i have to be warded for 18 hours, and if there is no delivery, an induced procedure will be done after 24 hours. i was then told to change into ward's pink attire, plug in the jarum thinging at my left hand and waited outside.

11ish am
MyLove! and Daddy are outside at the waiting area. stay with them while having brunch and read newspaper. Daddy had to leave to check up his bees in UPM. i stayed with MyLove! at the waiting area until the nurse came to me to bring me up to the ward.

1230ish pm - 730pm:
at the ward, i was station in a single room, with my own bathroom and a nice view of hospital landscape, but no TV! :(. MyLove! joined me and later daddy came. then mommy came. bored to death in the room. so i just chit chatting with MyLove! and my parents until the visiting hour was over.

830ish pm:
a doc came to check me out. still no signs of delivery.

10ish pm:
trying to sleep since too bored.
but it was sleepless night (i have no idea how to operate the bed so it's not very comfortable!)

between 2am - 6am:
nurse came by to check my blood pressure and baby's heart beat, making me not having enough sleep. feel mild contraction along the way

630am:
doctors checking the opening, still at 1cm.

7am - 730am:
MyLove! came for visit. had breakfast and still sleepy. discover my water has stop dripping. sudah rase gembira sbb ingat dah bole discharge.

730am - 12pm:
trying to sleep but with a lot of disturbance from nurses who trying to get my blood pressure and checking baby's heart beat. at one time there's a specialist doctor doing the routine checking. after several disturbance, decided to have bath (hot shower lagi) and do toilet business. contraction still mild but seems quicken

12pm:
lunch came in and a nurse came by, told me 'a good news'. asking me to eat my lunch quickly and get ready to enter the delivery room. dengan x percayenye (sbb ingat dah boleh discharge), thinking that i might be induced or c-sect since no strong contraction yet.

1230pm - 2pm:
MyLove! and daddy came. i told them about what the nurse told me. MyLove! getting ready to bring things to delivery room. nurse giving ubat julap to clear the system. nurse bring me down to the delivery room. daddy said good luck at the lift.

2pm:
preparation at delivery room. still no feeling of giving birth since still no major contraction (siap bole gelak2 dgn nurse). a doctor check me out, check the opening, now at 3cm and help me pee. told me i can't get up from the bed, no toilet trip, no drinking, no eating. later MyLove! came in. temaning me for a while then the doc came back for a detail checking. while checking discover that my posterior water bag did break but did not release completely, help to break the water bag completely and mcm air terjun ia mengalir. i wet my bed! doc told me i may have to wait for minimum 16 hours for the baby to come out! gilo apo nak tunggu kelaparan kat situ. huhu

3ish pm - 6 ish pm:
contraction sudah bermula. staring from mild contraction that i still can manage until sakit teramat. the feeling is like something is going to explode in your stomach, but the stomach is to hard and the back is too painfull. holding MyLove! hands during the contraction did not help that much (hehe), using the painkiller gas did nothing. and at one point a doctor suggested to inject another painkiller, only to make me more sleepy and did not ease the pain at all. at one point the opening is already at 5cm.
MyLove! told me at one time when the doctors checking me, i was screaming very loudly and my voice can be heard at the nurse station. hehe..amatlah sorry, but at that time the doctors are checking the opening during my contraction period. sgt2 sakit ok!

oh, did i mention one of the doctor is kakak nadiah zawani?!

6ish pm:
i told MyLove! that i feel like pooing and ask him to called the nurse to help me with the mess that i was about to make. he did nothing! thinking that it's only my imagination.
the truth is the baby;s head is about to came out!

626pm Monday evening of 4th Oct 2010:
after a lot of courage by the nurses and MyLove! (oh and one intern doctor), a healthy baby girl has safely coming out from my womb.
the feeling: EXTRAORDINARY!

630ish - 730ish pm:
proses jahitan bermula
i was pushed back to my room.
breastfeed my baby for the first time.

8pm - 820pm
MyLove! teman me for a while before being ask to leave.

830ish of 4th Oct 2010 till 430pm of 6th Oct 2010:
duduk di ward sahaja, breastfeed baby, makan, tido, tukar lampin baby, mandi, tido lagi dan lagi

yes, so i stayed in the hospital for 4 freaking days!!! not because of the baby, but because of the mommy (that's me!). sampai the cleaner and the guard pon dah kenal aku dok tanye2 lagi bile nak keluar spital ni. i did no t make friend with other mother (because i was in a single room, and because most of the mothers only have to stay for maximum one night!) but i did make friends with the nurses (tp restricted sikit since kadang2 doctor panggil diorg ni)
but rest assure, everything turn out fine, i did not have any infection whatsoever.

after the first experience, would i do it again?
maybe! but not for the next 2 years kot.. ehehehehehe (nanti 2nd time dah lupe dah)

i'll post photos soon!

due date

2010-09-22T10:42:00.000+08:00

nervous.
too nervous if i think about it.
it's getting nearer.
start walking like a penguin.
my buttock sudah cepat kebas

bile kah?
bersediakah?

bismillahirahmanirrahim....

taken from ratuhati.com:

Apakah tanda-tanda hampir bersalin? Tanda-tanda bersalin berbeza bagi kebanyakan wanita.

Bayi turun ke bawah

Perut menjadi ringan sekitar dua minggu sebelum kelahiran kerana kepala bayi sudah pun 'turun' ke dalam kawasan rangka tulang pelvis. Anda mungkin terasa:

sakit di bahagian kelangkang kerana bayi menekan.
kerap membuang air kecil semasa ini kerana bayi menekan pundi kencing
sakit perut, memulas
kerap buang air besar
kerap terkentut

Keluar lendir pekat atau keluar darah bercampur lendir

Lendir pekat seperti gam lekang dari laluan pintu rahim apabila pintu rahim mula menipis.
Lendir bercampur darah pula keluar apabila pintu rahim mula membuka. Boleh berlaku beberapa jam atau beberapa hari sebelum bersalin. Segera ke hospital.

Sakit belakang

Bayi beralih dan menekan tulang belakang anda.
Untuk mengurangkan sakit belakang anda, posisikan diri anda seperti merangkak (tapi jangan merangkak ke depan!), dan angkat atau tinggikan badan anda ke atas, tunggu kiraan 5 dan rehatkan badan anda. Ulangi lagi.
Anda juga boleh mengurangkannya dengan banyakkan berjalan. Ia juga akan mempercepatkan kelahiran anda.
Jika sukar untuk anda berjalan, minta suami anda urut belakang anda dengan kuat semasa anda berbaring mengiring.

Pecah air ketuban

Air ini biasanya keluar dengan banyak dari vagina. Warnanya jernih, tanpa bau. Segera ke hospital.

{mosimage}Pintu pangkal rahim terbuka dan menipis

Doktor akan melakukan pemeriksaan vagina. Pembukaan di bahagian pangkal rahim atau servik dikesan dengan skala 1 hingga 10.

Kontraksi yang tetap dan berterusan

Kira kontraksi atau pengecutan otot rahim anda. Buat jadual. Baca seterusnya di artikel "Kontraksi, Kelahiran Sebenar atau Palsu"

Bila Perlu ke Hospital

Segera ke Hospital untuk kepastian doktor bila:

kontraksi 5 minit sekali selama 1 jam. (datang lebih cepat jika anda tinggal jauh. Anda pasti tak mahu bersalin dalam kereta. :-) )
keluar air ketuban.
pergerakan bayi menjadi kurang kerap.
keluar darah dari vagina.
apa saja masalah yang dialami.

hari lebaran

2010-09-10T10:00:00.005+08:00

IKHLAS DARI KAMI : NAZIM & MARYAM

time?!

2010-09-01T17:51:00.000+08:00

this morning before work, i had a very bad stomach ache. not that kind of diarrhea thingy, or sembelit or even menstrual cramp, just something is hurting my stomach.
i had sahur this morning as usual, but like i said, it's not about something i've eaten or whatsoever..
it's just hurt.
so i tried to paksa myself to do my morning business (pooing) but no avail.
suddenly, i remembered my sis' experience when she first having her child. she too felt like pooing all night long but still non coming out. but the pain is just there. then several hours later, blood came out meleleh2..

oh no
is it time??! but, i don't have any kind of discharge or bleeding at that time.
and i still felt that OurJoy! still moving happily inside my womb. and i know OurJoy! still at her vertical position.

it can't be....

but my uterus does have cramping like Braxton Hicks cramp..
so, i just keep on breathing, reached for my cloths and went to work as usual, hopping that it's only a false labour.
and yes, i break my fast early today, in case that i need all the energy in case it's a real thing.

oh.. i just wish i knew what it was, bcoz after several hour with office work. it's not that painful anymore. tho, my back is still in pain and my buttock area starts to get kebas. haha.. terlepas puasa aku hari ni. cis!

i'm sorry if i'm using words that are not appropriate or anything. i know it's ramadhan time. well, that's the best i can do. somehow being pregnant, all this dirty words seems so normal. huhu

ok, i'm not in labour yet~
hehe
and i hope i'll be on 10.10.10
AMIN!

rasa lapar teramat

2010-08-26T17:38:00.000+08:00

nak buke pose now! tp mcm tinggal 2 jam je lagi.
sayangnyee...
i did not miss sahur like any other day, but i fell so tired and hungry today.
why oo why??!!!

sikit lagi maryam... sikit lagi...
though i only miss one day of fasting so far (because i did not feel OurJoy! move at all that day. after buke je, terus geduk2 dalam perut ku), today i was this close of taking a piece of pau / roti canai from the production floor.

Ya Allah, sikit je lagi plis!
oo maybe.. ni angkara MyLove! x bangun sahur pagi tadi. i did wake him up, but he did not get up. just snooze off like there's no tomorrow. so, semangat sahur kurang la ni.
oh no.. how i'm going to face a weekend without him... huhu. sahur berseorangan jugak. buke seorang diri jugak. waaaaaaaaaaaaa..........

mommy daddy.. i'm coming home!!!!!!!!!!!!!

reaching 8

2010-08-22T10:25:00.000+08:00

8 months into pregnancy. i have all the maternity blues.
you name it:
ugly stretch marks especially below my belly and breast area, kaki bengkak, asyik nak pee aje, heavier at the stomach causing back pain, leg cramps, sleepless night since it's hard for me to find my comfortable angle (bantal x sedap la, plus the baby moves around like nobody's business), etc.. to many to list down here
heh

but the best of all, went you know the baby's moving, you know that the baby is alright. yeah, it can be painful sometimes. one time i think i felt OurJoy! moving her leg from my belly button area and going downwards to the left side of me, at the very edge of the plasenta. punye la i terkejut like gosh, what are you doing in there?! haha. then you can see your belly moving around. when i go to the right, she moves together with me and vice versa.
aaa.. i shall miss this feeling again very soon.

very soon meaning anytime now. that's what the doctor / midwife keep saying. OurJoy! can go out as early as next week, or according to schedule which is within 7weeks time. ok, my bags are ready. maybe just a little bit more baby things to buy. hehe
but i do want OurJoy! to go out right after raya, so that i can still enjoy raya food (rendang, ketupat, lemang, nyam!)

i just had a Braxton Hicks contraction as i'm typing this. adoila. berdenyut2 uterus ku...

what i need now is a prayer that everything will go smoothly. i know that giving birth will be painful (and i don't know if i ever be ready for that). then there's pantang session (again, i don't know if i'm gonna follow the kampung2 rules here), and then there will be breastfeeding session. haha.. should i really looking forward to this? :)

everything will be a new experience for me. having a child. only time will tell when i'm getting children plak. hehe. ok ok.. one at a time.

Doa mudah bersalin dan keselamatan kandungan

Ya Allah ,

peliharalah anakku selama ia berada di dalam kandunganku dan sihatkanlah dia, Engkaulah yang menyembuhkan , tidak ada penawar melainkan penawar-Mu , penawar yang tidak meninggalkan penyakit.

Ya Allah ,

Engkau perelokkanlah kejadiannya yang sempurna dan tetapkanlah hatinya agar beriman kepada-Mu dan kepada Rasul-Mu.

Ya Allah , zahirkanlah dia ke dunia dengan mudah dan selamat .

Ya Allah anugerahkanlah dia kesihatan yang sempurna , berakal dan bijaksana , alim dan beramal .

Ya Allah ,

panjangkanlah umurnya dalam ketaatan , sihatkanlah tubuh badannya ,dan indahkanlah akhlaknya , fasihkanlah lidahnya , perelokkanlah suaranya untuk membaca al-Quran dan hadis dengan berkat Nabi Muhamad s.a.w. dan segala puji bagi Allah Tuhan Semesta Alam .

family

2010-08-17T12:27:00.000+08:00

a conversation among me, daddy and mommy (and maybe MyLove!, abang and jujue too.. hehe) during iftar at my parents living room yesterday.

Abang: angah nanti dah bersalin xkan nak naik2 tangga duduk apartment lagi.
Me: nanti duduk umah ni la. pantang kat sini. lagi pon, dalam end of month ni jugak pon dah nak duduk sini.
Abang: oooo..
Ayah: tulah, kalau x larat dah nak naik tangga umah ni untuk naik bilik, bole duduk bilik belakang tu (yep, my parent's house are quite high too)
Me: yey! xyah naik tangga
Mak: alah.. mak dulu mase mengandung korang sume, bole je naik tangga ni. lima2 orang plak tu. ok ape naik tangga. exercise.
Me: kat opis pon angah kene naik tangga
Mak: nanti senang nak beranak la.
Me: yolah omak ku!

haha.. so there. i'll be moving in with my parents by end of month. maybe not to MyLove! liking. hehehehehehe. takpe MyLove!, kalau awak nak mandi air panas, gi la balik apartment. kalau awak nak makan sedap time buke, suruh la saya masak!!!
hehe

tips sahur (taken from nst)

2010-08-13T14:51:00.002+08:00

we should practice this.. (bole x MyLove!?)

AVOID

l Fried and fatty foods.

2 Foods containing too much sugar.

3 Over-eating, especially at sahur (meal before dawn).

4 Too much caffeinated drinks at sahur. Tea and coffee make you pass more urine, taking with it valuable mineral salts that your body will need during the day.

5 Cigarettes. If you cannot give up smoking, cut down gradually, starting a few weeks before Ramadan.

EAT

l Complex carbohydrates at sahur so that the food lasts longer, making you less hungry.
2 Dates are excellent source of sugar, fibre, carbohydrates, potassium and magnesium.
3 Almonds are rich in protein and fibre with less fat.

4 Bananas are a good source of potassium, magnesium and carbohydrates.

DRINK

As much water or pure fruit juices as possible between buka puasa (start of fasting) and bedtime so that your body can adjust fluid levels in time. Aim to drink at least 1.2 -1.5 litres of fluid.

During this period, changes need to be made with regard to the diet. The following may serve as a general guide:

Suggested schedule

7.28pm (or appropriate time): Break fast (buka puasa) with a light meal, for example, savoury congee and some fruit and dates with a sugar-free drink. This is like a snack.

Follow with maghrib prayers (fourth of five formal daily prayers for practising Muslims).

8pm: Have a breakfast-type meal. Practical examples of good breakfasts are an omelette, a bowl of high fibre cereals and some fresh fruit, baked beans and a little avocado on whole grain toast with a glass of skimmed milk and a handful of raisins or a big bowl of oat porridge with grated apple and a yoghurt.

8.40pm: Isyak /Terawih Prayers (the last of the daily prayers for Muslims).

10pm: Have a lunch-like meal — rice with lean meat, fish and vegetables and followed by a fruit or a low calorie dessert or a pasta dish with salads or just plain old good hot noodles soup.

11.30pm: Sleep

4.45am or 5am: This is the most important meal to start the day. Have a dinner-type meal. The biggest problem is being able to face such foods so early in the morning. But do try your best as the more you eat, the less likely you are to flake out completely in the middle of the day.

ramadhan

2010-08-11T09:30:00.000+08:00

HAPPY FASTING, IFTARING,TERAWIHING , and SAHURING!!!

kala malam bulan gerhana

2010-07-29T15:27:00.002+08:00

baru tgk smalam.. cinema was like 1/4 penuh je. main cinema plak tu. good seats too. and OurJoy! was over excited watching edward cullen itu. hehe

since i did not read the book wutsoever, i kinda liked it, walaupun agak slow. i don't like bella still and i have to agree with most of the ppl, bella sgt lembik, not like in twillight. mmm.. shud've watched inception tp cinema sgt kecik and only 2 time slots. maybe one more round of movie before ramadhan and confinement. ;)

speaking of ramadhan, i'm not sure if i can make 30 days of fasting without fail. i should put it as a target, then i won't have to ganti pose! hihi.. that only happened to me once (after baligh laaa). but i still have 4 more days to go, and have not done it yet still. after one attempt last sunday, i just can't go through with it and have to berbuka at 3pm. huhu.. sikit je lagi tau. ok..ok i'll fast tomorrow and the day after. heh and nx week monday and tuesday and maybe thursday and saturday. AMIN!

OurJoy! is already 28 weeks old! that is 7 months! how time flies. now is when i starting to be in trouble when laying on my back, i 'm getting breathing difficulties. mcm tersedak2 la. and sleeping on my left or right side makes me uncomfortable on my arms and neck. huhu... kene beli bantal ke?
i'm moving back to my parents place InsyaAllah in mid August. dah x larat nak panjat tangga. kalau tertinggal barang, maunye nak panjat naik balik. huhu

as for things for baby, well, i've collected quite a number of samples of baby diapers and newborn cloth and some essentials like baby towels, baby toothbrush, baby reading cards, etc. yes, SAMPLES sahaja, but that's quite a numbers. and finally, we bought some baby towels, a very small tilam and the cover for changing diapers from ikea. haha.. talk about buying baby stuff. we have ZERO knowledge. after much consideration, we have made a few list of items to buy starting ramadhan. haha.. orang gi beli baju raya, kitorg beli brg baby.

but looking through my sis experience, we don't really need that much stuff for babies apetah lagi yg mahal2. since the baby will grow, and the items will somehow akan menjadi barang pakai buang. so, we will start off by buying some apparel (mcm 3 helai je kot..), baby nursery (blanket, changing pad, pillow, etc), moving on to bath set and health care, breast feeding items, car seat and finally satu botol susu! then only we will buy other items.. atau lebih baik, mengharap pada ehsan orang2 yg baik hati.. haha

ok enough already..

Dear Dutch,

2010-07-11T10:44:00.001+08:00

mmg si sotong kurita tu nak kene sembelih la

at this moment the thing still choose Spain over Holland to win the world cup.

arghhh..

whatever it is, dear dutch players, just do your best and WIN your 1st ever world cup.

i'll try to watch the game if i'm not that sleepy on monday morning, and MyLove! take out the tilam and put them in front of the TV.

you see, i can't sleep on the thin tilam that's already in front of the tv now since i'll hurt my back so badly. while the couch, err... ok fine, let me just clear out all the cloth that has been on the couch for over 2 weeks tu. then maybe i can watch the game in peace.

heh

do your very best wahai Netherlands. i promise, if you win the world cup 2010, i'll make a trip to the Netherlands during my plan euro tour in 2012.

baby girl?

2010-06-28T11:22:00.002+08:00

baby photos untuk tatapan:

*NOTE TO MYSELF: hari2 tgk muka baby! don't forget your routine Surah Yusuf, Surah Luqman and Surah Maryam after Maghrib prayers
:)
OurJoy!, can't wait for you!

MYLOVE!

2010-06-16T00:30:00.008+08:00

there's this one person i knew back then in early december 2007.

the reason i met him is because i was buying a new car.

eventually i was fooled by somewhat a charming voice on the phone that called me a week earlier.

that's not the person that i met that day. bummer.

but anyway, this guy layan me as usual, like what a salesman will do. bring me (and kak yan) 2 glass of milo. but when he wrote the pricing/figures on a piece of paper, i can see his hand trembeling. hihi

then, we went for a test drive along jalan kebun. we'd stop for petrol, and as he's putting in the petrol, me and kak yan bergossip sambil giggled in the car. kak yan pon mulalah.. "okla die tu mar.." hehe

so, that's the beginning of the many more appointments: at my then office in subang 2, at my house in kajang and at his office in shah alam.

so. bermulalah bibit2 cinta. hik

at that time, he always called me. for nothing. bukan nak cakap pasal kerete. ntah tanye ape ntah.

then ade hati tu, ask me to kejut him very early in the morning, kononnye nak settle kan a few things regarding my car. HARAP! xde kaitan pon, but i did that anyway (WHY? oh WHY?!)

he like to make a stupid jokes. example, there's this one time he suppose to see me at my house in kajang. and the sms goes like this:

"skarang tgh on d way".

after like 1/2 hour, he sms me again "baru nak on d way"

aik tadi dah kate on d way?

"tadi on d way go toilet, skarang on d way ke kajang".

ye kawan kawan, sangat lawak!

then, came the day, finally my car were being delivered. delivered ke mendenye, aku kene naik komuter gi shah alam. he pick me up with my new neo. and belanja me makan.

u think that's finally over?

NO!

he forgot to chopped and signed a few warranties. bukan lupe, sengaja lupe.

so he made excuses then promise me to return everything on Valentine's day that week. saje je nak cari alasan nak jumpe kan.

so V day came, and we had dinner at Hotel UITM Shah Alam. we talked mostly about my trip back then to KK. he returned all documents and he gave me chocolate. i amik je la. eheh.

and later that night, he called me and said that he wants to be my special one. acecece.. ingat romantik ke?

3 years 4 months and 2 days has passed. now, here we are, having a roller coaster in our lives. with OurJoy! little girl in my tummy.

all i want to say i love you nevertheless, walaupun perut mu makin hari makin besar dari ku.

Mohd Nazim Bin Mohd Rawi.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! and may our life be as colourful as we painted it to be.

cup

2010-06-11T14:42:00.001+08:00

FIFA world cup 2010 start today.
FIFA world cup 2010 without MANY star players!
FIFA world cup 2010 are held during winter.

oh well, c'mon Netherlands!!!

P.S. mizan diterbalikan adalah nazim. ok.. reject sudah name ni, heh

inspiration

2010-06-04T14:25:00.002+08:00

i have NO inspiration to write.

plus my right hand middle finger hurt so badly everytime i punch the keyboard due to yesterday's medical checkup. and Alhamdullilah, my hemoglobin level still at excellent rate.
but i gain 3 kg within a month. and that's not good for the me and OurJoy!. need to control my carb intake now.

i guess i should wait after i watch Prince of Persia Sand of Time to get my inspiration back. i should have finish PoP Sand of Time game back then since i only have like 2 more stages to go. i tell the story later why i couldn't finish it back then and why i don't just continue playing them now.

oh well, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TUANKU MIZAN ZAINAL ABIDIN!!!
(should i name my boy mizan then?.. hehe)

bandung

2010-05-05T17:13:00.004+08:00

THE TOTAL DAMAGES FROM THE 6 DAYS 5 NIGHTS TRIP:
accommodations: Rp1,164,000
transport: Rp827,500 (not include flight tickets)
food: (no exact figure since mostly no receipt)
entrance fees/activities: Rp185,000

SHOPPING:
cash: Rp3,570,500 (including food)
credit card: Rp2,815,200

Maxis bills: RM1064.65!!!

i'm officially BROKE till end of year. waaaaa!!!

other than that, it was fun and tiring trip.

more pictures on facebook ya!

1st!

2010-05-02T09:25:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 1ST ANNIVERSARY MY LOVE!

YOU ARE MY ENDLESS LOVE!

anggapanmu

2010-04-19T17:40:00.002+08:00

ANGGAPANMU (Asmin Mudin/Asmin Mudin)

Singer: ZIANA ZAIN

Sekebun cinta nan berbunga
Teguh berdiri nan berduri
Aku yang asli di dalam mekar
Bila terbit mentari
Menguntumlah

Sejambang cinta nan berbunga
Megah berdiri nan tiada
Mekar yang kukuh
Bau dan kaku
Itulah pilihanku
Aku di taman hanya perhiasan
Mata ungu..

Hanya mampu ku melihat
Kecurangan warna bunga
Idamanmu berbaja tiada
Sedang aku anggapanmu
Menyusahkan untuk meraih impian
Terlontar ku di halaman
Pemusnah ku adalah kumbang
Runtuh bila ku kelayuan
Impianmu hanyalah masa
Untuk menikmati segala
Belum pasti dirimu bahgia

Walaupun aku dipersia
Dari kaca perhiasanmu
Kanku mengorak kuntuman bunga
Seluruh taman ini
Moga matamu bila kejauhan
Terserlahlah

the song is very deep. x paham pon sbenarnye.

puitis sgt.

nevertheless, shahir sang them very well during AF

last saturday,

walaupun ala2 david cook nyanyi mariah carrey.

and aku xde la minat pon si shahir ni,

sbb aku x minat saujana.

and I'M NOT A COOKIE!

bukan cookie monster ye!

checkup di Klinik Kesihatan Kajang

2010-04-08T15:27:00.000+08:00

Midwife melakukan pemeriksaan keseluruhan termasuk pemeriksaan darah, air kencing dan secara fizikal.
Hasil ujian darah dan air kencing adalah sangat memuaskan.

- BANGGA GILE DOOOO

Pemeriksaan fizikal termasuk menekan permukaan rahim dan pemeriksaan payudara.
- SAYA HANYA MERELAKAN WALAUPUN TAKUT SEBAB DIE TEKAN PERUT AKU MCM KUAT AND XDE PAPE JE. huhu

ULASAN:
Midwife suruh saya makan Balance diet. makan banyak sayuran hijau. bukan x boleh makan sayur kaler lain, tapi kandungan vitamin sayuran kaler lain itu berlainan.

- SAYA MAKAN SETIAP 2 JAM LA KAK. MAKAN NASI DAN LAUK SAYUR 3 KALI SEHARI.

Midwife suruh saya makan makanan yang banyak zat besi seperti daging, kerang dah hati.

- ALA SAYA X SUKA MAKAN HATI, KERANG RASA HANYIR AND XDE SELERA LA. OKLAH SAYA MAKAN DAGING JE.

Midwife suruh saya minum susu sekurang-kurangnya 6 sudu bancuhan (susu tepung) setiap hari atau lebih tepat 3 kali sehari.

- KALAU MINUM FRESH MILK BOLEH ?

Midwife jawab jangan minum susu fresh orang india selalu jual itu kerana kalorinya lebih tinggi

- OOO.. KALAU SUSU DUTCH LADY?

Midwife x menjawab pula soalan saya yang ini

Midwife suruh saya bersalin di hospital, walaupun masih awal lagi.

- HABIS TU, NAK BERSALIN KAT MANA?

Midwife suruh saya elak mengangkat barang berat sebab kandungan masih kecil.

- SAYA MMG X LARAT PON NAK ANGKAT

Midwife suruh saya belajar 'Penyusuan Susu Ibu' sebab susu ibu lebih banyak khasiat. dah ada DHA dah, x payah beli susu kat kedai.

- SUSU IBU JUAL KAT KEDAI MAHAL PLAK TU.

Midwife setuju

Midwife suruh saya berjumpa doktor.

dan Doktor hanya berkata, "betulah tu apa yang nurse tadi tu cakap. ikut je"

weight

2010-03-18T16:11:00.006+08:00

one of my production workers realize that i'm getting fatter. when i break the news that i'm pregnant, she was like "ooo.. patutla. xpe gemuk mase ni"

THE FACTS:

i'm now 8 kg heavier than the day i got married.

i'm now in my 2nd month of pregnancy. so i gain another 2 kg since before i got pregnant.

i check the weight gain calculator for pregnancy, and surprisingly at this stage i'm supposed to add another 2 kg to get my IDEAL pregnancy weight.

i feel heavy already now, how am i supposed to get another 2 kg?
so far my craving has been: curry dishes, chicken dishes, a whole week lunch with nasi ayam pelbagai rasa, mangga yg manis (i hv no appetite of eating sour food.. i wonder why?!)
what else should i'll be craving for? mmm.. maybe fish dishes? fish is better than chicken btw.
heh

i'm bloating, my bottom and my hips are getting wider, and my boops are getting larger.
i need new cloths and undergarments.
new cloths - semestinye di bandung la
undergarments - errr.. jusco?

JOM shopping!

happy vs sad

2010-03-15T11:57:00.000+08:00

very happy that MyLove! coming back tonight

very sad that i'm having a very bad headache without MyLove! by my side today

very happy that Lee Chong Wei won the All England badminton game yesterday

very sad that i didn't watch it live last night (tv tgk aku)

very happy that K Niza (my cousin) have a beautiful baby girl on saturday evening

very sad that Jujus (my sis-in-law) have a miscarriage on sunday morning

hubby less

2010-03-13T12:26:00.002+08:00

i cried!
not having MyLove! around for the next 3 days will not be fun.
huarghhhhhh...

as i was having a sleepless night without hubby by my side, i decided to sleep in the living room in front of the tv.

i watch rerun of Friends and Everybody Loves Raymond, live game of All England and some stories about Elvis on E!.

the All England single game was the interesting one
it's between no 5 taufik hidayat and no 6 peter gade.
a very close games. 20-22, 22-20 and 22-20.
peter gade won.
but what i like the most is their 'official' jersey.

sexy arms they have.
did turn me on.

haha

then i watched The Last Days Of Elvis, but i fell asleep before the shows end.

as i fell back into sleep, i dreamed of something very weird.

"i was involved in an investigation of a murder.
the suspect uses alibi of having a sprayed tan in between the murder.
but she looks as if she doesn't have any.
so i investigate the tanning salon.
the suspect did came to the salon.
and did the tanning.
but the paint just didn't stick on her.
so i tried it out.
and it works well on me.
and i'm loving it."

then i woke up.

CERITA APAKAH INI?!

OurJoy!

2010-03-09T10:51:00.002+08:00

sorry for not spreading the news earlier, but now, after a miss period, 2 urine tests, 2 scan tests and 8 weeks later, it's confirm.

it's a good advice i took from someone close to me not tell anyone until OurJoy! is 2 months old, since anything can happen at the earlier stages.
i'm taking a good care of myself now. mengurangkan climbing stairs (office and apartment) and climbing them at a turtle speed, no caffeine (argghhh..), milk and soybean everyday, more fruits and vege (so that OurJoy! will eat sayur especially taugeh when he/she grow up), less housework (hahahah.. MyLove! will do that now), no more ondescene blog (a lot of gruesome images, not good for OurJoy!), and the most important MORE SLEEP!. hehe

so, i guess, i have to put on hold most of my adventure list now. i'm glad i did my surfing lesson earlier. dapat gak OurJoy! ku merasa surfing and berguling2 di dalam laut. haha. just couldn't continue with diving lesson. hihu. it's ok, there's always next year.

do pray that OurJoy! and mummy-to-be will be healthy for the next 7 months to come

write

2010-03-05T11:23:00.002+08:00

MyLove! ask me to post something for him to read here.

......................................................................................................

sekian.

CNY

2010-02-14T00:02:00.003+08:00

it spells

GONG XI FAT CHAI.

but the correct pronunciation are

KUNG HEI FAT CHOI.

in Hakka it sounds like

GUNG HEE FATT CHOI.

it means

CONGRATULATIONS AND BE PROSPEROUS.

for me, i just want enjoy my long weekend which i rarely get.

surfing~

2010-02-01T11:57:00.004+08:00

it was fun. but to get through the waves was really horrific and tiredsome.
i can really classified the waves is as high as tsunami, but NO! the guide says this is actually VERY SMALL!
gilo ke apo

the professionals doing their thing

2 hours session with the guide, then i can go on my own. but i only used my 2 hours lesson since we have to drive straight back home after that.
si 'muncung' (that's what he called himself), was really helpful, guiding me, and giving me tips. and holding the super large board, larger than me for sure. MyLove! too help me holding the board in the water too.

on sand to get the feeling with sharil (the owner)

it takes me less than 15 minutes on the first try before i opt to stop for a quick rest.
another 1/2 hour try out really got me, as i went up to the beach, i was shaking for super exhaustion. never felt like it for a long time.
and that is when i opt to get about 45 minutes rest. x larat siot, pancit habis. i think i did take nap for like 2 minutes. hihihi

i'm trying the hardest

the next session, was really awesome. i finally got the chance of standing on the board, successfully, and not only once, but a few times. yey!! too bad at this time MyLove! has really giving up taking any photos. no picture of me standing on the board la, sedey~

will i do it again? i guess i will. maybe i should start off at Sunway Lagoon since the wave is not as strong as the one in Desaru. then i may go there again, or maybe to Cherating or even better to Bali.

and today, on working monday, my body was really aching, i can't hardy hold a pen and write, got scratches everywhere (arms, elbow and knees because of the foam board), and the worst part is that my face really looks like udang bakar.

and i'm going to tgif tonight looking like this?!!! ON NO! akan pakai makeup tebal plis!

nasib baik la aku dah kahwin

hahahaha

thank you MyLove! for another great birthday gift!

appreciate? NOT~

2010-01-28T01:10:00.000+08:00

treat myself with early birthday treat. thanks to dominos for giving me free pizza for my birthday.
but i did not enjoy it like i'm supposed to. mmm... i guess some ppl just doesn't know how to express their appreciation.

ah. well, things happened.

another early birthday celebration dinner tonight. errghh.. don't feel excited about it anymore.
and the coming weekend.. :(

sigh

Puppy

2010-01-25T17:55:00.001+08:00

aku rasa mcm x kerje je harini.
post audit effect.
rasa sangat heaven.
even my colleagues are jealous with me.
sampai ade org tu suruh aku update e-filing.
nak update mcm mane, thn 2009 belum bukak pon lagi
huhu

ape nak buat ni. rasa seminggu ni mcm xnak keje. cepatlah hari jumaat tibe
i'm going surfing

mmmm.. i love MyLove! over and over again.
thank you MyLove! for the Baby Puppy, present i received for my achievement merangkap birthday gift

(tho, u'd promised me an original Levi's jeans for my birthday.. yelah, size mcm dah besar cket, takut xde size la tu.. huhu)

oh well, enjoy ur day ppl!

audit

2010-01-23T10:51:00.002+08:00

habes juge akhirnye. yeye..
now, i've to think of the next step. should i stay? quit? find another job? further my studies? or maybe just do both? i don't know. time will tell, but at the moment, i'm still considering carefully.

right now, i'm just counting my days for another 'honeymoon' trip. (oklah, bukan honeymoon. it's myLove!'s company trip) SURFING BEBEH! and maybe get a little more sleep.

speaking of which, i realize i do have trouble sleeping since Bluey died (that would be since a week ago). at first i thought it's just because of the the 2 days audit which ended yesterday, but then again, i still woke up in the middle of the night for nothing today. i did have this conversation with 2 of my 3 auditors the other day, and surprisingly, they experience the same thing.

do change of climate have something to do with this? i don't know, but probably yes. tho, MyLove! have not been bothered by this (still berdengkur walaupun lightning berdetum mcm bom pon x dengar). but i don't know about you guys.

do you have trouble sleeping lately?

PS: Al Fatihah to Sultan of Johor, Almutawakkil Al-Allah Sultan Iskandar ibni Al-marhum Sultan Ismail (tho i'm not a johorian. xpe sesama umat Islam)

BLU-ey...

2010-01-18T16:10:00.001+08:00

i lost a fully pregnant cat yesterday morning
she died just below my bedroom's window at my parents house.(no wonder i had a hard time sleeping at my old bedroom that day).
after her mother Si Awi left, she conquered our resident, not giving chance to any other female cats (even her own child who look just like her). all the male cats will go the her first foo breeding. as the result, the endlessness pregnancy during her life time.
she'd gave birth to numerous kittens before (even in my cupboard), but sadly until now only 2 survived.

though during her living life, she had done quite a lot of bad things - being trap in the house, no place to pee/poo so, there goes my mother's carpet, and also sofa as for her scratching

she's got beautiful blue eyes (that's why we call her bluey), has a cangkuk like tail (only at the end) and looks beautiful when she's fat especially during her pregnancy. i guess, she will always looks beautiful now.

Bluey, you shall be miss.
maka tinggal la si TOTOL si budak lapar 24jam seorg diri.

muhibbah~

2010-01-01T00:01:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!
SELAMAT TAHUN BARU!

新年快乐!

नया साल मुबारक हो!

proud

2009-12-29T11:28:00.001+08:00

JEALOUS.. not anymore!

PROUD.. hell YES!

taken from atie's facebook pic

congratulations for able to conquer gunung kinabalu babes!!!

x sia2 aku cheer pada pukul 4 pagi!

2013, i'm marking the calender

jealous

2009-12-23T09:36:00.005+08:00

i'm super jealous of my babes who's currently on their way to Sabah for Kinabalu (ok maybe not currently but tgh still berpacking lagi kot). it has been my long dream to climb it (tho i've done that in 2007 walaupun stakat hanya 2.5 km jee) dan berada di puncak kinabalu. target to do so at 30 and that is in 2013. kalau ade anak bawak je la. huhuhuhu

i'm super jealous of acen (my bro) who's currently travelling UK (now in scotland)! it has been my dream to menjejak kaki to europe and main2 snow and see their beautiful culture/buildings/history. gosh, need to do more saving and do backpacking style in europe like daddy used to do back in the days. target 2011/2012. kalau ade anak bawak je la. huhuhuhu

i'm super jealous of my cousins who recently in Singapore spontaneously, with limited amount of cash. haha, talk about spontaneous. they've been planning since october, but just couldn't find the time to actually go there until last week. by saying "jom pegi this weekend je la", and there they are. duit seciput, dok pinjam2 duit lagi. haha. tho i've been to Singapore before, but to do it spontaneously, is like..ok.. not anymore! huhuhuhu

hope you guys have fun while i'm stuck here, working during the holidays.. sob sob (seriously, air mate bercucuran dah ni)

radio

2009-12-07T13:37:00.003+08:00

i sound weird on the radio
as i listen to it later after the call, i was shock to hear my own voice.
that's not me!!! it was loud plak tu. even when i think i giggled softly, it's still that loud on the radio
hahahaha

well, i did not guess it right. but at least i won a KFC voucher
MyLove!, KFC jom!

change of story- KB Mall tragedy. i felt sorry for the victims. Inallilah.. mcm Hollywood / Jacky Chan's movie pon ade
last time i was at KB Mall i think during Aidilfitri holiday. guess that the victims just happen to be at the wrong place. it's not 100% the driver's fault, maybe because of the car's engine condition (and maybe the wall too??!! xkan la plak nak salahkan dinding.. huhu). accidents can happen anywhere. i've read a few blogs saying that the driver (and the friends) trying to do an act to put the blame on Kelantan's government because of all the commotion nowadays, i said "BullSh*t" la. it's an accident for God sake. the driver's too is cedera parah k.
politics.. politics..

at least i know a fact:
old cars are actually a better quality car than the new one. it's stronger and tougher. the victim inside the cars survive, aren't they?

kelik

2009-12-01T16:00:00.001+08:00

kelik kelate = makan tanpa hadnya. di rumah yang diduduki, di setiap rumah yang ditandangi, dan ketika berada di luar

kelik kelate = tidur tanpa hadnya, malam tidur jam 10, pagi tidur semula jam 7, petang tidur semula jam 4

kelik kelate = cenderahati dari saudara mara semestinya kain batik. koleksi kain batik semakin bertambah nampaknya

kelik kelate = shopping baju, tudung dan kain sudah menjadi kelaziman. wakaf che yeh menjadi lokasi terbaru selepas rantau panjang. hanya menunggu masa yang lebih panjang di pasar siti khadijah

kesimpulan : KELIK KELATE = MENGGEMUK DAN MUFLIS!

takmau balik kelate lagi bole x?????!!!!!!!!!

misses

2009-11-23T09:39:00.000+08:00

eventually, i'm in no control of my life anymore. i couldn't do this, i couldn't do that. i miss so many things i still wanna to do. i miss being 'available' at most family and friends occasion. i miss attending weddings. i miss having a hang out session. i miss having all girl's outings. i miss doing things with my family. i miss watching 3 movies in-a-row in cinemas. i miss craving for food at restaurant. i miss working out (exercise, doing sports), i miss being stupid with my brothers. i miss daddy's jokes. i miss being independent. and i miss playing with cats.

all my sense of adventure just disappear since approximately 8 months ago, thanks to hectic work and marriage life
on the other hands, a priority is still a priority
maybe it seems like i'm whinging, but i just need to express what i feel deep inside of me since a couple of days ago
no hard feelings people

membadak

2009-11-20T13:03:00.001+08:00

i've watched 'How I Met Your Mother' only once in my life
haha
always screw up on the actual time of screening on NTV7
or maybe, there's always something else to watch on other channels
i don't know. but i never watch it

but the episode i did watch was the 'Spoiler Alert' episode (yes, i've googled) where the gang annoyed one another with their own flaws. they never realize this until someone brought it up during a conversation (a shattering glass sound can be heard whenever they realize this). read more here

eventually, this thing did happen to me just a couple of days ago and is still stuck in head
thanks to MyLove!

you see, one late night, at 12ish pm, i was about to sleep when suddenly there a loud membadak sound coming from above. i know it's not my aunt (who live exactly above us) since she's not around that day. so it must have been from my aunt's neighbours.
so i made a statement to my husband about this:

Me: budak-budak ni x skolah ke esok? skolah blom cuti kan? dok lari2 lagi tgh mlm ni
MyLove!: itu bukan bunyi budak2 lari la
Me: habis tu?
MyLove!: bunyi org tgh *toot*

seriously that never occurs to me until that faithful day. niat dan pemikiran ku sangat la suci murni sebelum ini.
and since then, every time i heard somebody membadak above us (even though it's on a bright sunny day) i do have a very bad imagination in my head.
thanks BIG time to MyLove!

Women with bigger breast found to be smarter - The Star 12th Nov 09

2009-11-12T12:46:00.005+08:00

great.... (~dreadful tone here~)

IF ONLY I HAVE 2 OF THOSE

bersyukurlah...

bola itu bulat

2009-11-09T14:33:00.005+08:00

Man U lost to Chelsea yesterday

deyms..

nasib je tu.. hihi
(coz i stand that Man U can only be defeated by Liverpool..:p)

and Kelantan lost to Nogori the day before

between the 2 reds.. who's the biggest world class team?.. Man U
between the 2 reds.. who has the biggest fan in the whole wide world?.. Man U
between the 2 reds.. who got defeated in a 'BIG' match? .. both of them but i didn't see Man U fans burning their banners / Stamford Bridge's benches?
or fans storm into the stadium until the gates are all wrecked.

seriously between the 2 reds.. the real immature fans are from Kelantan.
not all, tapi kerana nila setitik, rosak susu satu belanga

come on lah
bola itu sentiasa bulat.

if you play good, you win. adat la kalah menang
nak emo lebih2 apehal

peace!

written by:
- a Minang by blood, a Kelantanese by marriage, a big Man U fan who married to a big Chelsea fan-

fung's

2009-11-05T17:30:00.004+08:00

it's great to see a dear friend having his own fashion show slot in one of the most prestige fashion show in Malaysia

good luck dear friend!

sorry can't be there to support you
work matter

ps: kalau alfa jadi diva, kasi cincang same die

sick~

2009-10-28T14:07:00.004+08:00

not really.
no given MC.
works has really2 got into me that i have no time claiming one.

but my cough is still there and now a bit flu
blame the weather for this
or should i blame the air-condition at our room at home which is on the whole night last night while we were sleeping.
what should be just a 5 minutes session for me to 'mendodoi suami' turns out to be a 7 hours good night sleep.
without blanket some more.
oh well, no air-con allowed tonight since now it's raining heavily.

went home to my parents house during lunch just now.
to drop off things borrowed yesterday.
found my sister watching tv while doing laundries and cooking nuggets in the oven.
just found out that sometimes my sister come back home during lunch time.
aahh heaven.

but she will miss this when she move back to shah alam
and if i work in olak lempit

mmm.. (2nd thoughts???)

the end

babies

2009-10-23T09:35:00.004+08:00

"Baby arrives prematurely on AirAsia flight to Kuching" - NST 23 Oct 2009

THIS IS SUPER COOL!

mother and baby get free tickets for any destination some more. lifetime some more. walaupun air asia

bestnye..

bile nak pregnant ni?

dilemma

2009-10-20T10:06:00.004+08:00

current job
salary: enough
distance: 5-10 minutes away. balik rumah mase lunch pon ok. bangun lambat pon xpe
work scope: ok
work environment: ok, but where will i go from here?

new job
salary: higher
distance: about 1/2 drive if there's no jam. tol no problem. but kawasan hulu la
work scope: so much similar with current
work environment: it's an international company. i can go somewhere

should i miss the current previllage of my lunch time (like having lunch with myLove!, or going home to sidai baju or going groceries shopping at tesco, giant, billion, or paying bills, etc2...)

or should i focus more on WORK?

sigh

DEEPAVALI

2009-10-17T08:09:00.000+08:00

~HAPPY DIWALI~

p/s: this blog is only active during festive season

kihkih

mengemaskini

2009-10-15T18:12:00.004+08:00

sudah lama saya tidak menjenguk blog ini
mungkin kerana sibuk atau buat-buat sibuk.
hanya kata-kata ringkas dari saya

1. saya agak sedih dengan keadaan di padang, indonesia. belum ada kesempatan untuk melawat tempat itu lagi, walaupun sudah ada di dalam senarai ingin melawat (termasuk dalam lawatan bukit tinggi). mungkin sekarang saya boleh mula merancang semula tempat-tampat yang perlu dilawati dan padang mesti diletakan dalam tempat utama. iyalah, padang merupakan asal-usul keturunan nenek moyangku.

2. saya juga ada mendapat tawaran kerja di kawasan yang dinamakan olak lempit. hanya setengah jam sahaja perjalanan dari rumah. walaupun pendapatannya agak lumayan kerana ia dimiliki oleh syarikat internasional, tetapi jawatan itu agak rendah dengan jawatanku sekarang. belum diketahui samada mahu diteruskan atau ditolak.

3. saya ingin menjemput rakan-rakan taulan sekelian ke majlis rumah terbuka kecik-kecilan yang akan dijalankan pada 17 haribulan oktober ini di kediaman saya yang terletak di kajang utama. hanya kecil-kecilan dan iya, angkasawan tidak dijemput.

4. saya tidak tahu menulis secara betul dalam bahasa melayu. rasanya agak kekok. tetapi memandangkan suami saya sudah mula menelefon menanyakan mengapa saya belum pulang kerana dia ingin ke tesco dengan kadar segera, saya perlu beredar sekarang. "sabarlah sayang. belum tutup komputer lagi ni".

5. sekian dahulu kata-kata dari saya.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

2009-09-20T00:30:00.002+08:00

MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN

going back

2009-09-17T18:07:00.003+08:00

as i'm posting this post, i'm already on my way to pasir mas kelantan for raya holiday

might be 'berbuka'ing either at merapuh or gua musang.
and hopefully, there will be no bad traffic

hehe

yes, i'll be 'raya'ing in kelantan until 750pm sunday, be back in kl-kajang around 930 pm sunday, and will be back to melaka at 8am monday till wednesday

yippie (sapa suruh aku book ticket flight??!!!!)

happy holiday ppl!

090909

2009-09-09T12:32:00.002+08:00

just feel like writing today since it's 09.09.09

cool date isn't it

but have nothing to write about

haha

wait til 20.09.2009

opps.. that will be on the 1st day of syawal

wow.. another cool date on a very special day

let see

how about 31.01.3101

hahaha.. sah2 la xsempat. at that time i will be 1118 years old.
hopefully..

kui2

ok mmg entry ini xde modal pon

sad

2009-08-25T14:58:00.003+08:00

i do have to admit that most of the time i kept things to myself

i do that not to hurt others feeling

i know, it's bad

ia boleh memakan diri

ia boleh buat kita x happy

crying softly~

leaving

2009-08-13T09:17:00.004+08:00

this brother of mine is leaving for Manchester tonight

hope he had a blast being an 'oversea' student

nak makan ayam? sembelih sendiri la..

nak kfc? mmg xde la

nak nasik? hahaha.. roti je la

nak ikan sembilang masak pedas? ade ke ikan tu kat sane?

nak main game? x bwk computer nak main ape nye

yey! angah nak amik computer. nak main prince sampai habes sume!
pastu nak download tomb raider. pastu nak main assasins creed.. pastu nak delete game yg bohsan2 tu

haha

have fun my bro. i'll see you in Manchester in the year 2012 (InsyaAllah)

next chapter

2009-08-05T12:40:00.005+08:00

*non related with this new post but the person i'm talking about on the last entry are not my ex ke ape ke. he's just a good friends back then. ok. end of story*

we just bought a TV. not really bought la, more like a friend of mine had promised us on giving a home theater system as a wedding gift, but end up giving us a 32 inch TV instead, in the form of money.
hehe

tho, we thought of upgrading it to 42 inch tv, but after like 2 days of venturing kajang, surveying and all, we end up buying LG 32inch tv jugak. yey! ASTRO here i come!

i hate losing friends, but sometimes, things do happen. but i guess some people just can't accept the facts that everyone around us are growing up.. maturing..

by all means, all our actions are actually being bound with other questions..

why we did that?
what the consequences of doing that?
do we really have to do that?
will that other person be affected when we do that action?
etc

i guess, it's the personal thing afterall.

i feel sorry for him. tho, i'm still considering him as a friend

i hope he lead a good life ahead, a learn a lesson from what had happen..

like

2009-07-31T17:56:00.004+08:00

when i was in um about 5 years back (2nd year me think), i was introduce to this chinese fella.

he's adorable, not that good looking tho, but he's talented, smart enough and kind, and funny, laughs quite a lot, a good listener and all i know about him are all positives things.

i thot we had something going on back then, but alas nothing happened.

and i'm not ashamed of saying that i did have a little bit of crush on him back then. the last time we saw each other after he graduated (that's is like a year or maybe 2 years later) was when he came for a visit during a practice session back then.

well, moving on to the year of 2009

now he's a teacher on a far away state
and i'm married!

hope u lead a good life my friend~

Glory glory MAN UNITED!

2009-07-18T13:03:00.003+08:00

i'm off to watch MANCHESTER UNITED IN ACTION!
can't miss this one out, and they'r wearing new jersey

though no more ronaldo around
tp wayne rooney still ade
and van der sar
and rio ferdinand
and gary neville
and berbatov
and fletcher

and a new team member micheal owen

and ryan giggs still there
and paul scholes
wow sgt lah old timer ni

gosh, can't wait

LET SING TOGETHER NOW!

Glory glory Man united,
Glory glory Man united,
Glory glory Man united,
As the reds go marching up up up!

Just like the busby days and days gone by,
We’ll keep the red flags flying high,
Your gonna see us all from far and wide,
Your gonna hear the Mans that sing with pride.

United, Man united,
We’re the boys in red and we're on our way to Wemberly!

Wemberly, Wemberly,
We're the famous Man united and we're going to Wemberly,
Wemberly, Wemberly,
We're the famous Man united and we're going to Wemberly

In ’77 in the stockham team,
Back in December '83,
And everyone will no just who we are,
They'll be singing que sera sera

United, Man united,
We’re the boys in red and we're on our way to Wemberly!

Wemberly, Wemberly,
We're the famous Man united and we're going to Wemberly,
Wemberly, Wemberly,
We're the famous Man united and we're going to Wemberly

Glory glory Man united,
Glory glory Man united,
Glory glory Man united,
As the reds go marching up up up!

Glory glory Man united,
Glory glory Man united,
Glory glory Man united,
As the reds go marching up up up!

Glory glory Man united,
Glory glory Man united,
Glory glory Man united,
As the reds go marching up up up!

dad~

2009-07-16T18:05:00.005+08:00

to tell u the truth, the moment i took my father's hand and give him a kiss after my akad nikah, my eyes were seriously filled with tears. it did not roll down, cause i have to control myself in front of the people (plus i don't cry in public), but deep in my heart i feel touch, since i won't become his little girl anymore. i have been owned by someone else

daddy, i love u no matter what. this 'wide' little forehead will always have it's space for your special kiss

HAPPY 61st BIRTHDAY AYAH!
you seriously not that old!

pathetic

2009-07-09T17:26:00.002+08:00

sorry x update
bz sgt2

nak lepas geram jap
walaupun mcm xde kaitan sgt
sbb nampak sangat bende ni dipolitikan

patutlah ade org mmg xnak apply pon
ni lagi nak buat org confuse

dah elok2 satu pihak buat, tetiba nak tukar plak
tup tup tukar balik

lantakla.. asalkan senang nak apply, cepat n efektif

sekian

ps: this issue is on halal application to be handle back by JAKIM from HDC

series 1 - kelantan wedding trip

2009-06-26T14:41:00.000+08:00

First of all, trip to pasir mas kelantan on the 4th june 2009 was really tiring
it took us freaking 18 hours journey from Kajang to Pasir Mas, 6 hours in Bukit Tujuh alone due to tragedy 40 ft trailer bawak surat khabar lame block both lanes of one and only route on both direction via Kuala Lipis- Gua Musang line.

1 lane becomes 4 lanes

disaster site

And worst of all, the incident happened at 530 am that morning, only to be taken action at 6pm.

surat khabar lame je

People were angry, some of the people waiting were rombongan akad nikah/tunang on that day itself. Postponed la majlis nye.. hehe

strangers chit chating with strangers.

I killed my time doing this in the car.

berinai

Since i don’t have a steady hand, and i’m at the hilly side, i’m not taking any chances of doing any cacing2 design. hehe

Reaching pasir mas at the wee hour seriously were very much tiring. With only 2 hours of sleep, the next incident was seriously not helping. The Inn we were staying at messed up with our booking. haigh.. satu masalah lain pulak. And that happens during my make-up session.

With my wedding outfits, and complete makeup (siap bulu mate ok), and ran down to the reception counter and give her a few words. Pengantin naik marah ok! And people were seriously looking. I don’t care. She had messed up my day!

Problem not yet settled, i just keep the room keys and proceed to the event. Naseb aa.. aku bayar ape. Try to get back all the energy, while waiting myLove! to get ready at the nearby masjid, my mom and sister wear a tiara on me.. hehe.. barula mcm princess.. kui2

the event was a simple one. just makan2.. and a few photos shoots session

the event pictures

thanks fizzy, shambi, asni and hubby, mcna and syidah for attending.

more pictures on facebook ye!

most of my time there, i'll spent it with nazim's family, attending another wedding and a little shopping therapy at Rantau Panjang and KB.
ps: shopping at Rantau Panjang are best not during school holidays.

a cousin's wedding

after shopping in rantau panjang

on our way back, we still opt on the same Gua Musang-Kuala Lipis way (since my family who returned to KL 2 days earlier using the Kuala Terengganu route took them 12 hours! haha.. aku dah cakap.. jauh). and guess what, the trailer is not there 'nmore.. but, a few stacks of surat khabar lama are there beside the road.

4 days after tragedy

if i were the police, aku humban je sume surat khabar tu ngan lori2 tu skali dalam gaung tu. habes cerite.

sekian

ubat malas keje

2009-06-22T11:20:00.001+08:00

took this from here

pretty cool isn't it?!
hik!

kembali

2009-06-17T10:28:00.001+08:00

sadly.. i'm back to reality

nx coming post will be about weddings, kelantan trip, island trip and tawau trip

tunggu!

~wishes~

2009-06-16T00:01:00.003+08:00

dear Nazim Mohd Rawi

happy birthday myLove!

may we have a colourful journey together!

Love: Yours Truly!

06june09

2009-06-04T13:00:00.002+08:00

sila hadir!

away~

2009-05-30T10:42:00.002+08:00

i'll be in PD from 30th till 31st May

i'll be in Kelantan from 5th till 8th/9th June

i'll be in Sipadan from 11th till 15th June

weeee!

terbatok2

2009-05-22T17:12:00.008+08:00

errr... cough4X.... arghhh..... cough7X...... mmm.... cough 12X.... ough..... cough200X!......

do excuse myself. i'm busier than ever.
and i'm having a bad coughing week.

i'm bringing home office work, but NEVER do a thing on it. hihi..
melayan suami byk karenah.. hehe

now, i'm meeting deadlines, and i don't think i'll finished it on time.

must........
stay up........
to........
finish........
them........
by........
monday!

letihnye bekerja. nak jadi housewife je bole x?

can't wait for nx week. a weekend getaway with friends (sorry MyLove! silalah mengemas rumah.. hik!)

and the other week for bertandang wedding. deym, i should start getting myself ready for that.. and so far, i have done none.

must start drinking Brands Prune Essential again.. and stay out of sunlight.. and need to do facial and treading soon.. and also mandi lulur.. inai (sape nak tolong buat ni).. sigh

and the week after will be my honeymoon weekend... need to do planning jugak ni. should my 'swimming' activity only be on sea? or bed? kihkih

speaking of 'swimming', need to side tract a story. one of my malay colleague is pregnant, without a husband. the bosses are furious (chinese bosses do mind!!), and sadly the partner ran away. she keep it to herself, but the growing tummy can't lie.

i first realize this about 3 weeks ago, after i got married, coz she didn't come to the wedding. her reason - balik kampung - when i knew that her kampung was just 2 minutes away from the office. and my house is like 5 minutes away.. well, u do the calculation.
and she's wearing a big jackets all the time, even when she went to the loo. now, the jacket can't hide her little secret anymore.

it's really sadden me that this thing happen to her, and it sadden me more when the boyfriend ran away. not sure about the family though, but for us (the colleagues) and some of us are her neighbours, we can't really keep our mouth shut.

"eee.. x malu ke?"
"dulu pakai tudung ok je.. tp time puase bukak pulak.. tgk2 perut besar trus"
"!@#$%^&*()?<>~!@^%$#@*&^$#"( put chinese dialog here)
"^(%#!&$&!(*#^" (another chinese dialog here)

i don't want to get involve. coz i have my own life too. i hope she'll be strong dgn cacian yang akan dtg menimpa

baik aku siapkan keje aku ni.. x pasal2 kene marah ngan bos plak.

peace!

pengemis kota - very interesting article

2009-05-14T15:05:00.000+08:00

a very long article.. but very useful
i got this from http://ondscene.via.my/

tepuk dada, tanye selera

-marr

ARTIKEL INI DITULIS UNTUK ANDA BACA, KAJI, TELITI DAN AMBIL IKTIBAR DARINYA. IA BUKAN DITULIS HANYA UNTUK SUKA-SUKA, TETAPI SEBAGAI PANDUAN, INGATAN DAN TINDAKAN ANDA JIKA ANDA BERDEPAN DENGAN SITUASI YANG MENGELIRUKAN PEMIKIRAN ANDA INI.

(Simpanan foto-foto kes yang saya hadapi ketika berdepan dengan golongan ini, masih gagal saya kesan di mana saya simpan. Saya akan upload setelah saya berjaya mengesannya dalam simpanan saya)
Kita bukan tidak kasihan kepada mereka, kita juga bukan tidak simpati, dan kita juga bukanlah manusia yang tidak berperikemanusiaan.
Tetapi, wajarkah kita sebenarnya ditipu oleh kecacatan mereka dengan jalan yang amat menjijikkan semata-mata untuk 'memerah' wang kita dan mengalir masuk ke kocek mereka dengan jalan yang amat mudah.
Mereka mengemis, meminta simpati dan sampai yang sanggup mengalirkan airmata, dan menggunakan kanak-kanak, bayi, semata-mata untuk mendapat simpati dan wang kita.
Malangnya, orang Malaysia terlalu mudah ditipu, apalagi memberikan simpati tidak bertempat.
Sebenarnya, bukan sedikit, malah ramai dari kita merasa amat serba-salah apabila didekati golongan begini, terutama di restoran, kedai makan atau di tepi jalan.
Mungkin ada terfikir begini:
"Kalau aku sanggup makan habis RM10, takkan aku tak boleh bagi mereka ini RM1?"
Bohong jika anda tidak mengaku, bahawa anda sebenarnya malu apabila orang lain dengan senang hati memberi, tetapi anda menolak untuk mengorbankan wang anda kepada mereka.
Bohong juga jika anda tidak mengaku, anda sebenarnya amat-amat simpati kepada mereka.
Siapakah mereka ini dan bagaimanakah mereka beroperasi serta bagaimana untuk anda menepis atau menolak atau sekurang-kurangnya, membuatkan mereka berambus dari anda.
Untuk pengetahuan, mereka ini sebenarnya lebih kaya, lebih senang lebih mewah dari anda, tetapi kerana 'profesion' mereka adalah sebegitu, maka anda sebenarnya tertipu dan ditipu hidup-hidup.
Rencana ini saya tulis setelah saya berdepan dan membuat kajian selama kira-kira 10 tahun mengenai penyakit yang sebenarnya selama ini membodohkan diri anda sendiri.

Kategori pengemis/peminta sedekah:
1. Kanak-kanak - mereka ini pula terdiri dari 4 jenis
-bergerak sendirian
tanpa bantuan sesiapa tapi kemahuan mereka sendiri
-sindiket
mereka sebenarnya di'bela' oleh sindiket yang menyimpan kanak-kanak ini biasanya anak yatim, yatim piatu, mereka yang lri dari rumah.
Kanak-kanak ini akan ditinggalkan di sesuatu lokasi yang telah ditetapkan untuk menjalankan kegiatan ini dan akan diambil semula pada waktu tertentu, biasanya menggunakan van.
- bersama ibubapa/orang dewasa
kegiatan bersama orang dewasa menyebabkan orangramai bersimpati dengan keadaan kanak-kanak lalu anda bermurah hati untuk bersedekah.
- sekolah-sekolah pondok yang bertopengkan agama
kanak-kanak akan diperalat konon sebagai latihan untuk berniaga. Mereka akan dibekalkan dengan barangan seperti kalendar, surah yasin, pen, kad-kad konon sebagai sedekah atau membiayai apa-apa madrasah atau apa sahaja yang terlintas.
2. Orang dewasa
- mereka juga biasanya menggunakan kanak-kanak atau paling kronik, menggunakan bayi sebagai objek untuk simpati orangramai.
- gunakan taktik - seperti ketiadaan wang untuk bayar bil hospital
- kena ragut
- tertinggal bas, duit tambang takde
- sesat, nak balik kampung duit dah habis
3. Golongan OKU
- mereka paling mudah mendapat simpati, terutama golongan buta atau kecacatan tubuh badan.
- mereka paling beruntung kerana selain menipu orangramai, mereka juga ditipu sindiket lain yang menggunakan mereka.
Taktik mereka:
Gunakan surat/kepala surat yang menerangkan kecacatan mereka, dan konon mendapat sokongan dari Hospital, jabatan Agama untuk mengutip derma.
Menjual tisu sebagai alasan supaya anda tidak rasa bersalah jika anda hanya memberi wang, tetapi tidak dapat apa-apa.
Bagi yang buta, mereka biasanya akan dipimpin oleh biasanya wanita yang sihat wal-afiat konon sebagai penjaga, isteri, dan dengan selamba pergi dari meja-ke meja meminta wang.
Mereka juga kadang-kadang didalangi sindiket yang menghantar dengan kenderaan seperti van ke sesuatu lokasi.
Mereka yang membawa/memimpin sibuta, akan diberi komisen akan kutipan yang dapat. Si buta sebenarnya dipergunakan oleh wanita atau sindiket terbabit.
Ada dari mereka sebenarnya berpakat biasanya dengan oemandu teksi yang membawa ke sesuatu lokasi. Teksi akan menunggu sehingga urusan selesai dan membawa ke lokasi lain pula. Pemandu teksi akan turut mendapat komisen.
Kepada pemandu teksi yang terlibat,yang membaca artikel ini, bertaubatlah, anda sebenarnya hidup tidak diberkatiNya kerana bersubahat untuk menipu dan memperdaya orangramai.

DARI MANAKAH MEREKA INI?
1. Rakyat Malaysia - seperti anda, mereka juga rakyat Malaysia. Bezanya, mereka mungkin tinggal di kediaman lebih mewah dari anda, dan ada yang tinggal di hotel untuk tempoh tertentu sebelum berpindah ke lokasi lain.
2. Pelarian Rohingya - mereka menggunakan tiket pelarian Rohingya dan menggunakan kad UNHCR (Suruhanjaya Bangsa-bangsa Bersatu Bagi Orang Pelarian)
3. Negara China - mereka datang ke Malaysia semata-mata untuk mengemis kerana mereka tahu rakyat Malaysia amat pemurah.
4. Afghanistan - mereka datang konon sebagai jihad untuk rakan mereka di Afghanistan
5. Timur Tengah - juga menggunakan agama sebagai alasan meminta sedekah.
6. Thailand/ Indonesia- juga taktik seperti dari negara-negara lain
7. Warga Eropah yang biasanya membawa macam-macam surat akuan atas namakebajikan /'charity. Minta untuk dilihat paspot mereka, yang pastinya mereka akan mengeluarkan yang fotostat.
Tahukah anda, kerajaan tidak pernah mengeluarkan sebarang permit untuk sesiapa jua untuk meminta derma dari meja ke meja. Dan mereka yang biasanya mendakwa dari Amerika sejauh itu mampu datang semata-mata untuk jual rantai kunci atas nama kebajikan atau persatuan orang buta atau pekak di Amerika.
Sungguh bodoh anda yang terpedaya dengan konsep charity mereka itu.

BAGAIMANA MENGESAN DAN MEMERANGKAP PENGEMIS/PEMINTA SEDEKAH INI.
1. Jika kanak-kanak yang datang, anda minta kad pengenalannya. Tanyakan datang dengan siapa. Ambil foto dengan telefon bimbit anda. pasti mereka akan lari.
2. Jika mereka datangmembawa surat, helaian kertas, minta kertas itu, dan jangan tengok sekali imbas. Ambil, dan baca dengan teliti.
Perhatikan butiran berikut:
- Surat atau helaian biasanya adalah fotostat. Sindiket cuma perlu menukar nama pemegang, dan isinya dengan pengemis lain adalah sama.
. Jika kertas menggunakan kepala surat dari Hospital, tengok tarikhnya. Biasanya dah bertahun atau paling baru, ialah tarikh setahun lalu.
(Rujuk posting sebelum ini)
Mustahil untuk membayar bil rawatan, memakan masa bertahun untuk mengemis, takkan tak cukup-cukup lagi dapat duit.

KISAH 1
Saya pernah didatangi seorang lelaki yang kudung kakinya bersama seorang kanak-kanak di sebuah restoran di Bandar Baru Bangi.
Dengan bertongkat, dan memegang album dan kertas, dia pergi dari meja-ke meja dan saya anggarkan, dalam RM100 dia dah dapat. Saya tak sabar untuk 'menyambut' lelaki tersebut dan budak itu.
Tiba di meja saya, saya minta kad OKU yang dikeluarkan oleh Jabatan Kebajikan Masyarakat. Dia berjaya tunjukkan pada saya.
Kemudian saya minta album dan surat yang dia bawa. Dari surat, saya baca bahawa kononnya dia adalah pemandu bas yang terlibat kemalangan dan sebelah kakinya terpaksa dipotong.
Ok, lulus, memang kakinya takde sebelah.
Saya tengok album dibawanya. Gambar dia sekeluarga.
Tetapi apa yang membuatkan saya rasa amat jijik dengan manusia penipu ini?
Sebabnya, surat yang dibawanya menerangkan dia memerlukan kira-kira RM1000 untuk membeli kaki palsu. Malangnya, surat yang dibawanya telah usang, buruk dan kotor bertarikh tahun 2000. Bermakna, dah 8 tahun dia menjaja surat itu konon untuk beli kaki palsu yang harganya RM1000.
Bayangkan, jika dia mula mengemis dari tahun 2000 ke 2008, dan katalah dia hanya dapat RM1 sehari. Anda kiralah begini:
RM1 x 365 hari x 8 tahun = RM2, 920-00
Bukankah kaki palsu itu hanya berharga RM1000 seperti dalam surat, dan takkanlah dah 8 tahun tak dapat kumpul lagi.
Tetapi jika dia dapat paling kurang RM10 sehari, maka dalam 8 tahun dia akan dapat:
RM10 x 365 x 8 tahun = RM29,200-00
Saya sempat berceramah dengan lelaki itu tanpa langsung rasa simpati dengan kecacatan dia kerana dia sebenarnya menggunakan kecacatan itu untuk menipu. Saya tau, ramai di restoran ketika itu menyesal memberi wang kepada lelaki itu.
"Bang, dengan segala hormatnya, abang BERAMBUS dari tempat ini. Kalau nak hidup menipu, saya minta maaf. Atau saya serahkan abang pada polis."
3. Bagi OKU buta, mereka biasanya akan mendakwa datang dari Brickfields di Kuala Lumpur. Minta kad OKU/orang buta mereka.
Biasanya, mereka enggan memberikan kad itu atau kad telah luput tarikh.
Tanya pada mereka yang membawa mereka, dan minta tengok Kad Pengenalan. Biasanya, taktik ini menyebabkan mereka terus beredar dari anda.
Jika anda mahu, ambil foto. Snap betul-betul di depan muka kedua-dua mereka.
Dan jika anda rajin, ikut mereka ( tanpa disedari) dan percayalah, kebiasaannya ada sebuah teksi yang sudah menunggu...
Betapa bodohnya anda tertipu dengan kebutaan mereka yang sebenarnya mereka lebih kaya dari anda, tetapi memperdaya fikiran anda dengan mata yang buta itu.
4. Jika anda didatangi mereka yang membawa surat terutama dari Jabatan agama mana-manapun di negara ini, maka saya berani beritau, ia adalah palsu. Apa lagi jika surat itu dari negara jiran yang kita tidak tahu kesahihannya.
Untuk makluman, tiada pejabat agama, Majlis Agama di negara ini mengeluarkan apa jua bentuk surat yang menyokong perbuatan mengemis ini.
Kita ada Baitul Mal dan mustahil kita memberikan lesen untuk mengemis sedangkan kita boleh bantu dengan banyak perkara jika mereka benar-benar susah, dan bukan dengan jalan mengemis.
Jika anda benar-benar sakit hati, anda minta surat itu, cuba telefon mana-mana nombor yang ada disitu. Atau jika ada kenalan di mana-mana Pejabat Agama, Majlis Agama, minta pengesahan.
Saya berani kata, pengesahan yang anda dapat ialah - itu adalah surat palsu...!!!
5. Bagaimana pula jika tiba-tiba ada yang datang, bawa buku agama, dan minta anda derma dengan ikhlas. Dan, terbukalah hati anda untuk menderma kerana anda kesihan mereka dan demi ugama.
Baiklah, anda kata, anda nak derma RM1 dan mahu buku yang dibawa.
Apa jawapan anda dapat?
"Encik, takkanlah bagi RM1. Buku ni harganya RM15."
" Tadi kata derma ikhlas? Kenapa nak paksa jadi RM15? Kau ni nak jual buku ke atau mintak derma?"
Ok, dengan itu, terbukti, mereka gunakan buku agama itu untuk minta sedekah, walhal buku itu sendiri anda patut ragui dari mana sumbernya dan siapakah yang menjadi dalang memaksa mereka menjual buku itu kepada anda. Jika jual buku, buatlah cara jual buku, jangan gunakan perkataan derma ikhlas.
Nah, jika anda nak sangat pada buku yang sebenarnya boleh anda beli RM3 di kedai buku, maka anda belilah. Bayarlah RM15, dan minta resit.
Tapi, sebenarnya, resit itu adalah resit palsu yang takde alamat, takde nombor telefon dan kalau adapun, alamat palsu...

KISAH 2
Sedang makan di sebuah restoran di Bangsar, saya didatangi dua lelaki dari Timur Tengah, berjubah putih, kotor pulak tu. Mereka berjambang, berkopiah.
"Salam...Fi Sabilillah.."
Dan mereka hulurkan tangan, mungkin untuk bersalam...
Saya hanya menyentuh tangan mereka sedikit. Bukan sombong, tetapi apa guna saya menghormati mereka yang dah saya anggap, bakal menjadi mangsa sergahan saya nanti.
Selepas membebel pasal minta derma konon untuk rakan di Afghanistan untuk jihad, saya terpaksa potong cakap mereka.
"Paspot? I want to see your passport."
Mulanya mereka enggan dan mereka mungkin pura-pura tak faham English, tetapi, perkataan pasport, mereka faham.
Mereka berdolak dalik, dan akhirnya saya terpaksa bangun dan minta tokey restoran untuk halau malaun-malaun itu.
Akhirnya, mereka serahkan salinan fotostat paspot mereka. Dari Iran.
Malangnya, fotostat itu dah kabur dan apa yang saya lihat, tempohnya dah tamat tiga bulan lalu.
Maknyanya, mereka dah lebih masa tinggal di negara kita, dan mungkin salinan paspot palsu.
Malang juga bagi saya, apabila mereka juga mula berkeras yang saya tak percayakan sesama Muslim dan sanggup memalukan mereka.
"I DONT CARE. U GET OUT FROM HERE, OR ELSE I WILL CALL POLICE OR IMIGRATION"
Hati saya dah mula tergerak untuk menelefon rakan di IPK KL atau Imigresen, tapi tentu panjang ceritanya.
Dan, mereka berdua tergesa-gesa meninggalkan restoran itu.
KISAH 3
Setelah berjaya mengutip puluhan ringgit, akhirnya datanglah ke meja saya ketika saya sedang makan malam di Gerai Jalan Semarak di Kuala Lumpur.
Mereka berdua, seorang buta, seorang celik sihat segar bugar.
" Mana kad orang buta kau?"
"Tak bawak bang."
"Kau dari mana?"
"Brickfield bang."
"Yang kau ni, apahal kau usung mamat ni? Berapa kau dapat upah usung?"
"Tak delah bang...mana ada..kawan aja..."
"Baik kau bagitau aku, berapa kau dapat bawak orang buta ni?"
"Tak banyak bang... Ada la sikit-sikit..."
"Sikit tu berapa?"
"40 ringgit je bang"
" Kau biar betul, dengan senang hati kau dapat 40 ringgit ye bawak mamat ni?"
"Ala, bukan selalu bang..."
" Ok, aku minta maaf lah ye, kau blah dari sini sekarang. Bawak kawan kau ni sekarang. Kau datang dengan apa?"
"Motor bang..."
Dan saya terpaksa mengiring kedua-dua mereka ke motosikal mereka.
Malangnya, ketika nak naik atas motor, tayar motor mereka pula pancit...

LOKASI UNTUK ANDA LABURKAN WANG PADA SI PENIPU

Saya berani mengatakan, paling tidak, anda pernah melabur konon sebagai pahala sebab memberikan 'sedekah' sekurang-kurangnya sekali kepada peminta sedekah/pengemis jalanan ini.

Dan saya berani katakan, dan sanggup berdebat dengan siapa jua, bahawa, andalah manusia paling baghal kerana memberikan wang anda kepada penipu ini.

Saya terpaksa menggunakan bahasa kasar ini kerana saya amat sedih, marah dan sakit hati ,betapa ramai rakyat Malaysia masih lagi terpedaya dengan taktik manusia jahanam ini.

Tapi, apa lah yang saya boleh buat, kerana apa yang saya nampak sejak 10 tahun lalu, tak pernah saya nampak mana-mana orang mempertikaikan mereka ketika mereka datang menadah tangan.

Adalah malang bagi pengemis ini jika kebetulan, mereka datang kepada saya...

Paling tidak, anda akan berkata tidak atau menolak dengan baik, tetapi lebih ramai yang sanggup menghulurkan wang.

KENAPA?

1. Kerana anda anggap, adalah satu pahala besar jika anda menghulurkan sedekah kepada mereka.

2. Kerana anda lihat, orang lain hulur duit, tetapi anda rasa bersalah pula sebab anda menolaknya. Akhirnya, anda keluarkan juga duit.

3. Kerana anda malu pada teman wanita anda kerana nanti takut diceramah oleh dia kerana kedekut untuk bagi kepada malaun-malaun itu.

4. Kerana anda rimas mereka datang ke meja makan anda, lalu anda bagi juga sebab nak minta mereka blah.

5. Kerana anda takut / malu, anda akan diceramah oleh peminta sedekah ini, kerana konon anda berkira nak bagi mereka duit.

6. Kerana anda merasa kesian melihat seorang wanita yang mendukung bayi dan katanya wang tiada untuk beli susu, anak dah 3 hari tak makan...

7. Kerana anda memang pemurah tak bertempat, sedangkan anda sendiri hari tu hanya ada RM10 dalam kocek, dengan harapan, rezki anda akan murah lepas itu kerana 'bantu' orang susah.

8. Kerana anda memang bodoh sebab mata anda 'dibutakan' oleh sibuta itu.

LOKASI PENGEMIS BEROPERASI

1. Restoran, warong, food-court

2. Hadapan bank-bank

3. Stesyen minyak

4. Tepi jalan

5. Perkarangan masjid

7. Jejantas pejalan kaki

8. Hadapan kompleks beli-belah/hypermarket

9. Tempat letak kereta

10. Tepi jalan berhampiran lampu isyarat

11. Rumah ke rumah.
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Pernah saya didatangi seorang lelaki yang mendakwa dari Afghanistan.

Dengan gaya seolah-olah orang alim, datang dan terus meminta wang konon untuk membantu rakan di Afghanistan untuk berjihad.

Yang pasti, bila saya minta paspot, hanya salinan fotostat yang diberi dan telah tamat tempoh.

Tetapi yang membuatkan saya rasa nak sepak terajang lempang mamat jahanam itu apabila saya kata, saya tak akan bagi apa-apa pada dia dan saya nak lapor pada Imigresen.

"Sir, if u dont have money, u can buy chicken, fried chicken, and i can send to Afghanistan for my frends to eat. Jihad...!!!"

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Tiada apa yang akan merubah keadaan jika kita hanya berseorangan dapat membanteras kegiatan ini.

Bukan tugas saya untuk memperincikan peranan Jabatan Kebajikan Masyarakat, Polis, Imigresen,, Pihak Berkuasa Tempatan.

Tetapi, jika anda semua buang sifat pemurah tak bertempat itu, maka pasti lama-kelamaan mereka akan give-up juga.

Bayangkan, jika pergi ke food-court yang ada kira-kira 100 pelanggan, anggarannya lebihkurang begini:

JAM 9-00 pagi- Pusingan 1 (waktu sarapan)
20 orang x RM1 = RM 20

JAM 10-00 pagi-Pusingan 2
20 orang x RM1 =RM 20

JAM 11-00 pagi-Pusingan 3
20 orang x RM1 =RM 20

begitulah seterusnya sehingga pusingan 10 sehingga jam 12 malam

RM20 setiap pusingan x 10 pusingan = RM200

Mereka tidak bimbang kerana setiap pusingan, mereka akan bertemu berlainan mangsa kerana jarang pelanggan akan duduk di food court untuk makan dari jam 9 pagi hingga 12 tgh.

Jika anggaran minima 20 orang memberi RM1 setiap pusingan, menjelang tengahmalam, mereka dah dapat mengumpul sekurang-kurang RM200 dengan hanya menjual muka tebal selama kira-kira 15 minit untuk setiap pusingan.

Dan, lihat fakta ini:
RM200 x 30 hari : RM6000 /sebulan.

Anda kerja separuh mati siang malam, belum lagi dicampur tekanan kerja, kena memo dengan bos, kena saman parking, kena saman speedtrap, nak dapatkan bersih RM500 sebulan pun payah.

Dan , lihat fakta ini pula:

Andaikan, setiap food-court di'pegang' oleh satu pengemis, dan anggaran jika di Kuala Lumpur sahaja ada 100 food-court, inilah hasilnya:

RM200 x 100 food-court = RM20,000

RM20,000 X 30 HARI = RM600,000.

Bayang, RM600,000 sebulan kita beri kepada 100 pengemis di 100 food-court...

Akhir sekali, di sini, saya mencabar kepada pembaca blog ini, lakukan tindakan seperti yang saya pernah lakukan, dan saya yakin anda akan mendapat keputusan sama seperti apa yang pernah saya lakukan.

Selama ini saya melakukannya berseorangan, tetapi dibekalkan dengan keyakinan, keberanian dan sedikit pengetahuan mengenai undang-undang dan psikologi manusia.

Jika anda dapat buktikan, sila hantar maklumbalas kepada saya, dan yang paling penting, dapatkan foto penipu-penipu itu serta butirannya.

1 week after

2009-05-12T12:17:00.004+08:00

mihas 2009 was great!
i was on there till friday (something came up, that i don't have to be there during the weekend)

i had a drink or 2 of champagne at and being seduce with a french guy really turns me on. haha.. merepek siot, dah la tue, tp sweet talker siot. guess how old he thinks i am** (answer please schroll down)

then i bought 5 tins of beer for my family

and a few more other drinks for MyLove!

the damages : not much, rm30 je (beer rm1 setin)
hehe

mind u, all drinks that i had / bought are 100% halal, non-Alcoholic, if not, it could never enter mihas

since i'm no more on duty during the weekend, thought of joining the pre-planned Idya's birthday celebration on Sun.

Alas, MyLove! wants to go back to Pasir Mas to settle some issues there. haha.. dah name nye isteri, mestilah mengikut suami.

huhu..
so we went back to Pasir Mas after Asar on Saturday, after a quick drop-by at my parent's place to give some beers to Daddy. it took us 9 hours to drive up there on saturday, and took us almost 11 hours to come back this morning. talk about jalan x jem langsung, tp still x sampai2. hehe

the damages of being in Kelantan: adelah dalam RM 600. arghhh.. x bole balik selalu ni

sekian

**nak tau jugak ke? his guess.. SEVENTEEN... oh, how i wish

big thanks

2009-05-05T10:39:00.005+08:00

MyLove!: for make it only with one lafaz! (dok jeling2 tengok muke abang kot2 nak kenekan awak tetibe plak.. hehe)

my family: for all the preparations, pelamin, hantaran, khemah, jamuan, makanan dsb

make-up artis: for being on time, with beautiful make makeups. twice plak tu

my babes: atie (the hairdryer girl), shaxu' (the unrevealed talented mak inai, mak andam and mak susun buah), mixot (the depatch girl) and firah (rajin layan makcik2), for being there for from morning till night. for helping out of mengikat telur, susun buah, and menjadi late comer pengapit. i owe u guys big time. nanti aku belanje makan tony romas la

my err.. pond.. the 'us' gang: the cameraman, the divas, the penghiburs, and being dramatic (saat2 akhir ade hati mintak chicken wings plak). you guys did cheer me up. and for layaning makcik inai propah itu.. haha

everybody: for coming to the wedding. sorry for any blunders along the way. we've done our best. Kita merancang, Allah yang menentukan

Thank You ALL

i'm officially now known as Mrs Mohd Nazim Mohd Rawi

the male almost kisses the female (am talking about ladybird here)

2009-04-27T16:48:00.004+08:00

5 days.. really?!
still, i have piles of work to do.. jobs and wedding related.

jobs:
1. ISO documents still not done.. tp, mmg xkan habes pon
2. complaints to reply by tommorow
3. audit to report bt thursday
4. auditor to make appointment by thursday
5. supplier to make appointment nx week
6. MIHAS to attend nx week
7. ISO training to conduct this wednesday

wedding:
1. shoes to buy
2. house to sprint cleaning
3. room to sprint cleaning
4. bathrooms to clean
5. wall to paint
6. room to decorate
7. clothes to iron
8. food to prepare
9. hotel to book
10. facial to do
11. manicure to do
12. shopping to do
13. inai to wear
14. people to appoint jobs
15. and things will always come up later

am i ready?! well, i seriously have to. i just absorb everything and feel like the energy is in me now

oooh.. and i'm starting to drink Brands essential prune extract. quite tasty actually

and seriously, the post actually meant for me to put up the wedding cards. well, just part of it:

do make yourself available! hope to see you there.. i mean, here!
:)

one week to go

2009-04-26T11:32:00.000+08:00

HANTARAN = DONE! fresh stuff Friday
THEME COLOUR = DONE!
CARDS = DONE!
BAJU NIKAH = DONE!
BAJU SANDING = DONE!
MAKEUPS/ANDAMAN = DONE!
CAMERAMAN = DONE!
ENTERTAINMENT = DONE!
KEMAH/KANOPI + FOOD = DONE!
DOORGIFTS = VIP DONE! the rest DONE! booking DONE! last minute checking and arranging Friday
KURSUS KAHWIN = DONE!
JAIS = DONE!
KEMENTERIAN KESIHATAN = DONE!

**priority
**later on

really?

2009-04-22T14:55:00.011+08:00

i just realize this

i never appreciate 'him' on American Idol (too being a wannabe) but i do like 'him' on Lizzie McGuire series (gordo, me lik-iey)

not the same person!

damn... almost got me too!!!

accidents

2009-04-22T09:51:00.006+08:00

from time to time, i like to open this blogsite (warning: some pictures are not suitable for weak hearted)

a scene of a road accident. picture credited to ondscene website

it really2 sad when someone dies in road accidents.

MyLove! incident last month really take me by storm. though he's alright, Chelsea the only one that hurts, i'm still won't stop nagging him on driving too close to another vehicle in front

then my sis-in-law happen to witness one tragedy involving lorry and motorcycle that kills 2 student about 2 weeks ago (she's the one calling the firemen). the incident really traumatized her. she's willing to buy a new car for my brother, so that my bro won't have to ride a motorcycle to work anymore

it's true some accident can't be avoided.
when it rains, or on damages roads, drivers should have been a little bit more careful. it's ok to be late, just be more patient on the road.

speed limit should really at 110km/h max. well, i did drive more than that especially on the highways (i done 160km/h once.. hehe). again, it's ok to be late.

motorcyclist, should learn not to ride in the middle of the road (between the 2 lanes). and drivers should be aware of the existing of the motorcyclist on the road. avoid riding if u can, even it's not your own fault, you are more prone on being crush on the road.

driving attitude will take time to change, especially us of being Malaysian. the terms 'Malaysia Boleh' cannot be applied on our rude driving attitude. it should have be 'Malaysia Boleh Ubah Sikap Memandu Kepada Yang Lebih Baik'. hehe.. i'm being ridicule here, but i hope u get my point.

do change and drive safely people!

falling slowly

2009-04-16T10:48:00.004+08:00

i know the song!
last year, as i was downloading all Enchanted's songs on the net, i came across this song

at that time, i was pretty occupied listening to amy adam's singing that i practically did not pay attention to this particular one

i downloaded it anyway.. alang2 kan

it has been in the list for almost a year now, as i'm only using my pc at home occasionally, just to surf the net

i suppose to stop watching idol from last week onwards, but, since i was back early yesterday, and there's no one at home, so watching AI is a good option, though it's already half way through

and when Kris Allen sang falling slowly from OST Once, last night on AI, it's so beautiful, i start turning on the PC and there it is. it has been there it is, untouchable (though i put The Frames as the singer, jenuh jugak aku carik)

Kris rendition is all good too, AWESOME! the best song of the night! (though i only starts watching on Matt's performance onwards)

alamak, budak2 jambu chomel jugak aku minat.
OIAM: Tomok;
AI: Kris;
AF: naseb baik xtgk.. aril kah??? oh tidak!

original version

kris version

lyrics
Glen Hansard - Falling Slowly

I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react
And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You'll make it now

Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing along

films

2009-04-15T10:15:00.005+08:00

to tell u the truth between Slumdog Millionaire and The Curious Case of Benjamin Button, i like button best

must be the 'brat' effect that had me keep on watching it last night (though i'm having a fever and baru lepas makan ubat, tahan taknak tido tu).
the drama of sweet, romantic and sad factors of the folm are a total complete. i had tears watching it and i believe i was crying in my sleep (the result of super mata sepet when i woke up)

while slumdog is sweet and adventurous. the romantic factor is not really there. to tell a story of a slum boy who wins a 20 million rupees, and he's not there for the money but love, sgt la x dramatic. my opinion ppl!

slumdog has a happy ending, while button vice versa. i guess for my current pms mood, i opt to more dramatic film, and button is the winner!

tpkan, nape lagu Jai Ho, pussy cat dolls nanyi Jay Ho??? sgt x puas hati

the day when everything happens

2009-04-14T16:32:00.005+08:00

i had a fever on 14th April 2009
i had a final meeting with a designer on 14th April 2009
i had a macaroni and cheese for lunch on 14th April 2009
i had my day of the 'month' on 14th April 2009
i had an hour gossip period with a colleague on 14th April 2009
i had a free time at the office since boss not around on 14th April 2009

i had a new nephew on 14th April 2009!

congratulation alang for having a healthy baby boy on 14th Aprill 2009. the baby was born way early. suppose to due on 1st may, but, since alang being an active girl, the baby came up sooner. bak kate atie, mmg die nak tgk aunty die nak kahwin ni kot.
haha

the chronicals of the event:
12 am the couple still not home (work and class)
5 am the couple went all the way to shah alam from kajang
7 am baby was born
9 am i got the news from daddy (name je duduk satu rumah...)

i'm happy.. ade baby shower la nanti mase wedding ku
hihi

my world.. bukan mawi world

2009-04-10T11:35:00.003+08:00

i cut my hair!!! finally!!! it's been a while since i got my hair cut short. the last time i had my haircut, it's still tie able. thank you Augustine for the great hair. though your jokes... seriously.. keep them just between us. heh

i stop watching american idol officially since this week's show. sorry, but there's just no umph in it anymore. plus, david a is in town. not that i'm gonna watch his showcase and all. just that, for him being here, pulls me away from watching the current idol (ade kaitan kah??) cute fella this idol. hehe.

i'm watching OIAM now. go tomok!! (what's up with me and little kids?? err, wait, tomok kecik lagi ke??? ahahha)

whatelse is new.. oh.. politics... err.. just read the papers la. malas nak elaborate

taa

my 2nd weekend gateaway

2009-04-08T16:55:00.008+08:00

do i need to say more?

at shaxu's place in KB

at kak eei's place in KB

at PCB in KB

more pictures at facebook, courtesy of farah fazullah and mixot (and nana??)

3 more weekends left:
1. family kenduri
2. another preparation
3. spa n body treatment
4. BIG DAY!

fiuuh.. i'm that busy ke?

one month to go

2009-04-02T11:40:00.005+08:00

HANTARAN = DONE! fresh stuff by end of april
THEME COLOUR = DONE!
CARDS = DONE! starts delivering
BAJU NIKAH = DONE! tudung April
BAJU SANDING = ~~DONE! tudung April.~~ aku stress. hopefully this can be done on time. sigh!
MAKEUPS/ANDAMAN = ~~booking DONE! reconfirm April. testing April.~~ ergghh.. something came up. start doing all over again.. surveying and looking
CAMERAMAN = DONE!
ENTERTAINMENT = DONE! though ade org tu mcm nak practice the night before event. nak kene ni!
KEMAH/KANOPI + FOOD = DONE!
DOORGIFTS = VIP DONE! the rest DONE! booking DONE!
KURSUS KAHWIN = DONE!
JAIS = DONE!
KEMENTERIAN KESIHATAN = DONE!

**priority
**later on

my weekend

2009-03-30T11:49:00.008+08:00

You made me remember the good times

When i could only remember the bad
You promised me a return
Of the peace i long ago had
You never left me alone
When that was what i wrongly thought i needed
You never dwelt on my faults
Instead you pointed out when i had succeeded
You made me laugh
When i felt i would cry
You made me live
When i wished to die.

thanks for the great weekend people. oh i wish we had more times enjoying it.
plus, lin and mixot would really like to try out Umbai.

well, there's always next time

i love every single minute of it.

love u guys so much!

now back to real world! sigh..

ps: mixot, tolong email gambar 'toooot'. sume gambar la senang. thanx!

conversations

2009-03-26T11:06:00.004+08:00

conversation 1

MOM: x cukup
DAD: terlebih cukup
ME: cukup2 la. kalau x cukup, reprint je la lagi
MOM: xyah reprint la. fotostat atas A4 je
DAD: ade ke fotostat
ME: sms je la. carik map kat google map. nampak clear atap umah

LESSON 1: each of us have different opinion. if we discuss thoroughly, we can get better result

conversation 2

MOM: ape lagi idea nak bagi doorgift ni. lelaki bagi telur, pompuan bagi kek. ke nak terbalik. xde idea dah
ME: bagi sume same je la. tapi alang punye bunga telur yg dulu2 ade lagi 3 kotak
MOM: la.. yeke. mak ade beli lagi 2 kotak tadi. la.. dah byk rupenye
ME: xde la byk sgt. tp yg lidi ade 1 kotak lagi
MOM: nanti gi beli lide punye 3 kotak lagi
ME: nak buat ape byk2, paha ade 2 je
MOM: ade 4 la. maklong pinjam lagi 2
ME: (dush.. mmg nak habeskan duit aku je ni). yg lebih alang punye tu, boleh la recycle cket. esok nak tanye idea 'member' tu
MOM: Ok

LESSON 2: try not to membazir

converstaion 3

MOM: baju dah hantar tailor?
ME: dah.. hantar kat Kimie
MOM: apesal hantar kat kedai melayu (bad experience with my sis's tailor)
ME: yg ni melayu famous, alang tu melayu penipu. Kimie kan mmg buat baju pengantin. die cakap dah, die cube, kalau x sempat, sewa je la die punye (malas nak pikir)
MOM: Ok la tu. suruh die carik tudungnye skali. senang sket (pon malas nak pikir)
ME: OK

LESSON 3: x cube, x tau, walaupun rasa malas itu mmg sgt best

converstaion 4

MOM: cube tgk sape menang Pemuda UMNO
DAD: (tukar channel) belom lagi. lamenye kira
ME: i think murhriz kot
DAD: i think so too

FINAL LESSON: fikir2kan lah, kenapa KJ?

**i'm OK now. seeing my face after these couples of days, i look old. i need to be CERIA!

darah manis

2009-03-24T10:35:00.002+08:00

org tue2 kate x elok bertunang lama2
org tue2 kate bertunang byk cabarannye
org tue2 kate org bertunang berdarah manis

i don't know any significant of these statement with engaged couples. but in the last couple of days, a few issues did came up

1. i'm nervous as hell
2. i'm really stress out
3. last minute changes. benci aku
4. personalities conflict between me and people around me
5. family conflict
6. MyLove! met an accident. he's OK, but Chelsea (the car) was badly injured

i guess, i have to agree with those statements.
my colleagues felt sorry for me (and us), but, as most of them being happily married and all, they'd advices me just to be strong.

it's OK to have cold feet,
it's normal to have challenges before the wedding.
it's all part of life.
and the best part, "nanti u sudah kahwin lagi byk cabaran".

'YA ALLAH, I NEED YOU GUIDANCES. DO KEEP ME STRONG! amin'

january girl

2009-03-21T09:50:00.004+08:00

Maryam took What does your birthday say about you? quiz (from facebook) and the result is January (mestilah January, cause i choose the month from the list.. duh!)

Stubborn and hard-hearted. - sometimes, yeah
Ambitious and serious. - yes and depends on situation
Loves to teach and be taught. - very much
Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. - not really. i try to avoid this
Likes to criticize. - not really. i prone to accept as it is
Hardworking and productive. - true, and i got result, which is good
Smart, neat and organized. - hahahahaha, i'm organized but not neat
Sensitive and has deep thoughts. - depends on the mood
Knows how to make others happy. - i try
Quiet unless excited or tensed. - i guess so
Rather reserved. - depends
Highly attentive. - depends on people
Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. - i have sensitive stomach
Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. - hahahaha, MyLove!, comment please!
Loves children. - boys especially
Loyal. - mmmm...
Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. - errr... not really
Very Stubborn and money cautious. - depends!

*The result not 100% trustful. as such, when they ask what's my favourite number, they gave a very strange sequence, that my favourite is not at one particular choice. so, i guess, each of our personality is formed by our outbring environment, not a random pick of numbers from a list. haha

random thoughts

2009-03-19T14:48:00.007+08:00

AMERICAN IDOL

after 2nd week, i still have no absolute favorite.
at first i like anoop, but now he's too karaoke like.
danny's ok.. but not yet being a fav to me
don't ever talk about adam here. out of the list
chris is just to cute, sound-wise, i'll grade him 4 out of 10
the girls.. err, skip please.

i still think last year's contestant was the best line up AI ever made (though some said a few of them are syndicate contestant, who cares, most of them delivered well)

WORK

i'm seriously busy this whole week. my usual work (which are evaluating products before release, or what they called as eating) is not being done the right way. sorry, if any of you happen to eat any pau and taste different than usual. hehe. though, usually that did not happen. most of the staff here have been working longer than i do.
hik

LEISURE

with all the pile up work, i don't know if i actually had time for leisure. hopefully, all this will be done by end of march. april will be a busy month for me.

WEDDING

wedding to attend, k ee's, early april. i'll be able to make it. flight booked!

my own wedding? i don't know if i want to think about it now. butterflies starts making colonies inside my stomach. damn! feel like crying.. sob!

FAMILY

whatever happens, we will still be 'a family'

Sound of Silence

2009-03-13T10:56:00.004+08:00

i heard this song long before i heard it again on watchmen

i don't know why they put the song during The Comedian's funeral since this song originally made after the event of John F Kennedy assassination in order to capture the emotion felt by the americans. though the movie is only fictional, and The Comedian turns to be the person who killed the President, it's just not appropriate

but, it's still a beautiful song from a beautiful duo, Simon and Garfunkel, back in the 60s (yes, they still alive and active in making musics)

enjoy!

The Sound of Silence
Simon and Garfunkel

Hello darkness, my old friend,
I've come to talk with you again,
Because a vision softly creeping,
Left its seeds while I was sleeping,
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of silence.

In restless dreams I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone,
'neath the halo of a street lamp,
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light
That split the night
And touched the sound of silence.

And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more.
People talking without speaking,
People hearing without listening,
People writing songs that voices never share
And no one dared
Disturb the sound of silence.

"Fools" said i, "you do not know
Silence like a cancer grows.
Hear my words that I might teach you,
Take my arms that I might reach you"
But my words like silent raindrops fell,
And echoed
In the wells of silence

And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon God they made.
And the sign flashed out its warning,
In the words that it was forming.
And the signs said,
"The words of the prophets
Are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls.
And whisperd in the sounds of silence"

football focus

2009-03-12T11:44:00.002+08:00

no, shebby's not in it.
hehe

all 4 english teams shows good result. all 4 of them move on to quarter finals
no 1 and no 4 on current spanish primera getting their place too
a german team membuli a portugal team, while another portugal team killing another spanish team on away goal aggregate

the best game, i have to say between chelsea and juventus
the most goals game will be bayern munich against the kelam kabut sporting clube de portogal.. kesian

the one i'm cheering for, mestilah Manchester United. go for 5 lads!

Watchmen

2009-03-11T17:42:00.006+08:00

the original members

i find this movie quite heavy (for someone who used to read and comics will be 40% of her everyday reading.. well, i did say used to read)

it's too detail, but useful if u would like to understand the whole plot

it's violent, which i don't really mind

and it's very sex appeal, well, most hollywood movies are

and loooooong, too long.. 2 hours 45 minutes, beku aku dalam cinema

i don't know if i like it, or don't like it, i do kinda feel like i want to watch it again..

but with the above statements, maybe i shouldn't.

Patrick Wilson looks old and fat in this movie, i like him better as Raoul, Viscoun de Changy in the Phantom of the Opera (because he sang beautifully, though the hair mcm stick to the head). he gained weight to played the part as Dan Dreiberg or the Nite Owl 2, not that amusing though

Malin Akerman is beautiful (well, she's a model), but her part as Laurie Jupiter is some sort like a bitch, like her mother Sally Jupiter

then there's Doc Manhattan (the blue man, good looking guy as a real person), Ozymandias (hot superhero), The Comedian (the 'bad' superhero, not a villian just have bad personality), and Rorschach (the true hero).

i only mention the main characters, nanti lagi pening kang

the cast

all and all, i still don't know if it's still a good movie to watch.

boleh la.. tengok je la, let you be the judge